Secrets || c.h

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Day 1:

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I am very sad, oh I am. I guess I'm just another misguided ghost- traveling endlessly. I always have my earbuds in, and try to block out the rest of the world. But it doesn't seem to work you see, everything seems to get to me.

Music seems to take it away whilst I'm listening to it, especially Coldplay; aka my favorite band! I could go on for hours talking about their songs, but for some reason; Everybody seems to hate them. And I don't really know why.

My absolute favorite song from Coldplay, would have to be "Paradise". It's such a beautiful song, and I relate to it. It's so sad, but so good. Plus, the lyrics actually have meaning. Songs are usually about parties, or some shit like that. Coldplay, they're different. They have a fantastic reason to sing. Relatable songs, I guess.

Okay, I admit. I'm going overboard in the fangirling department, but nobody's really listening. Are they?

In the night, the stormy night

Away she flies

My favorite line. I have my own little meaning to the song. Such as the girl he loved commit suicide, and after a storm of depression. She finally flew away to heaven. Off the her little paradise.

It seems so much better, don't you think? Being dead seems so much easier then living such a shitty, worthless life. It just sucks. At least I'm honest..

I used to have friends, I used to have a life.

Now I have no friends, and I'm completely lifeless. I sit by myself in the cafeteria watching the popular girls snicker at me and judge my poor clothes.

What happened to: it's what you wear from ear to ear, and not from head to toe that matters?

Oh well, I'd fail that one too.

I walked into the cafeteria and sat at table 7, my usual table. I sighed and looked at the table beside me, who were all laughing and talking.

I admit, I was jealous of how well they got along.

I plugged in my ear buds and turned on my music, which was in my first language. Japanese.

Another reason why I get bullied, racist jerks who blame me for being Asian.

{A/N romaji and English translation are on here :) }

8月15日の午後12時半くらいのこと

Hachi gatsu juu go nichi no gogo juu ni ji han kurai no koto

天気が良い

Tenki ga ii

病気になりそうなほど眩しい日差しの中

Byouki ni narisou na hodo mabushii hizashi no naka

することも無いから君と 駄弁 (だべ)っていた

Suru koto mo nai kara kimi to dabetteita

「でもまぁ夏は嫌いかな」猫を撫でながら

"Demo maa natsu wa kirai kana" neko o nade nagara

君はふてぶてしくつぶやいた

Kimi wa futebuteshiku tsubuyaita

あぁ、逃げ出した猫の後を追いかけて

Aa, nige dashita neko no ato o oikakete

飛び込んでしまったのは赤に変わった信号機