𝐈 𝐖𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐀𝐥𝐰𝐚𝐲𝐬 𝐋𝐨𝐯𝐞 𝐘𝐨𝐮, 𝐅𝐨𝐫𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫

I Hate Myself

Y/n POV

"What I did to deserve this kind of pain?" I screamed and cried by looking over and over of the tabloids and news about Chris and Minka's meet and there is also some fans saying that Minka is better than me, well it's true.. That's what Chris said.. If he really did loved me, he shouldn't be meeting her or if it's important at least he should have informed about the meet right? But he didn't.. It's shows clearly that he never loved me, all the love and care he showed towards me was fake.. FUCKING FAKE.. But why? Why he must hurt me in this way, what did I do? I loved him so badly, he is my everything but he never loved me, that's the truth.. By taking the fact that I will never be loved truly by anyone in my life, I drank a bottle full of liquor. And yeah I blocked his number,Eventhou I don't have heart to do it but some how I did.

The feel of liquor is burning inside me, it's fucking painful but this pain is nothing compared to the pain that Christopher Robert Evans gave me..

I was very drunk, I can't even barely walk by myself but some how I made myself walk to the bathroom.. I looked myself in the mirror

" I hate you Y/n, I hate you.. I hate the person I see in the mirror, you destroyed my life.. You re ugly.. Nobody wants you or love you,even your husband don't love you.. You're a trash" I screamed at the reflection of myself on the mirror and cried..

"Nobody loves me.. Everyone hates me.. That's the truth.. I don't deserve happiness in my life" I told myself and cried.. That's all I can do..

I cleaned my face off and splashed water on it to hide the redness of my eyes and tears that keep on flowing..

I walked out from the bathroom and take a seat on the couch.. Tears are still flowing from my eyes, I tried to control it but somehow my pain and sorrow were not having it.. The more I look at my surrounding, the more I cried.. So I decided to take a walk to free up my mind.. Im still drunk but so what, Im not gonna drive.. I just want to walk.. Walk and forget about everything..

Before going for a walk.. I fixed myself and took a sip of water then I stepped out and closed the door.. Took a walk

I was just walking on the hill road by not seeing any of the surrounding scenery.. My mind and thoughts were only on him.. I have no idea how he can do this to me.. I was still crying.. This fucking tears wont stop even if I tried to.. I was so deep in my thoughts till I didn't even realize that there was a car coming my way.. I frozed when I saw the car coming near to me, I didn't even try to move away.. The next thing I know that the car hit me and my vision went blurry.. With that I closed my eyes..

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This is story haven't finished yet guys😅 .. Sorry for the mistakes
Will update later