SENPOEMTATO

C h e s t

Hi, it's been a while...
It's been a while since I saw you smile.
That smile you make because you just feel so pretty.
Not this smile you make so nobody would see your pity.

I missed what you are before...
Posting jokes and stories when you are bore
Excited somebody tells you, you made them happy.
But you're just this sad, melancholic person in reality.

It's ironic how you're this cool carefree person
Thinking life is just a juicy big watermelon
Advicing people speaking from what they felt.
When you, yourself also needs their help.

It hurts to see the tears in your eyes when you cry,
I picked up a napkin, reached out, and I swear I did try,
But is it really hard to wipe your tears and the look of terror
Then I realize I was facing my own reflection in the old shattered mirror.

If only I can give you a big warm hug,
Like two cold palms asking for warmth in one comfy steamy mug.
Like one poor lost duckling paddling in a pond searching for its family
Who finally found them and at the end of the night sleeps under the wing of its mommy.

I am no longer me.
I really miss it when myself is still free.
Free from loneliness and heartaches for caring too much for the world.
Back when life is so precious and light when i'm still that happy little girl.

It is sad to think how life just turned you upside down.
When you make us feel happy as if youre this cheerful clown.
You always have this smile that everyone is seeing.
But nobody knows twas just a mask to hide your weeping.

Limit is what we called when we can't do it anymore.
Even life have its limit, and gives you out your final score.
If only we can turn back time and stay with that self.
To stay and store these memories locked in the safest shelf.

Sorry if I ruined your day with this poem
It is just here, is where I could see you all as my home.
Isn't home is where we suppose to feel our best?
Since mine is not, but thanks for reading what I want to get ride off of my chest.