SENPOEMTATO

Melancholic

Do you know the feeling that you gave your everything in that,
And assume it would rise, but in the end you stay flat?

Like you gave your all and hoping for the best,
Like you gave everything even it costs you not to rest?

Have you ever felt to be so funny, and happy in front of everybody?
Where in reality, you're just a sad person making others happy.

Wouldn't it cost you to be uninspired and lose interest?
Like it should be your passion, your life and dearest?

Just because of the word "Unfair",
All your inspiration, turns into despair?

Coz, I don't know what I'm feeling right now,
I wanna be happy, but the question is "How?".

The feeling of melancholy suddenly dropped at me,
Like I wanna isolate myself completely from everybody.

I feel like I'm unwanted, hated, forgotten,disliked,
But isn't it just me? Or am I just negatively psyched?

I chose to stay passive and hidden, because of this,
Rather than to stay in the open, and soullessly diss.

I don't understand what to do, where to go, who to talk,
I end up staring into nothing, even my feet wont walk.

I wanna do this, do that, right here, right now, as in hit!
But since I got traumatized,sadly, I end up not doing it.

The cleaner the hands has been more appreciated than the dirty hands,
Coz that's what society do, unfairness to it's finest, they can't understand.

If I could only separate myself from my body and punch me?
I would be gladly and really gonna do it in front of everybody.

Why does it have to be like this, I mean, why.....just why!?
Can't just somebody give me a crack and get myself high?

I wanna forget this, forget that, forget all, and start a new life
But it still haunts me, like a murderer chasing me with a knife.

I wanna forget everything and be optimistic, and move on
But sadly it's not that easy like changing a mistyped emoticon.

Trapped in my melancholic state, and emotionally drowning
Since I can't rely to anyone but me, to save me from dying.

All my hard works that has been simply turned into rust to dust.
Is like breaking one most valued thing of a person called, Trust.

Learning from your own mistake is intelligent,
But watching from the mistake of others is wise.

Now, after being so melancholic and shit,
There's one thing in life I also learned from it.

You gave your all, they saw it small.
The others gave nothing, yet they saw it as something.

But the truth is, no matter how it cost you, no matter how many hurts it gives you,
Just be passionate about it, learn from it, coz in the end, you'll be cooking barbecue.