detraction | Sohn Youngjae ✅

Eric: october

Younghoon closed his door in my face leaving me feeling deflated. He didn't say anything at all and he always had something to say. I turned around and saw Hyunjoon rounding the corner. I quickly hid then watched as he knocked on Younghoon's door. "Oh. You again." "You know what I'm here for." I watched Hyunjoon walk in then Younghoon shut the door behind him. I wanted to know what was going on behind that closed door. I doubted either would tell me if I asked, so I went with the old listen by placing your ear on the door. Bed creaks were heard soon heard, and I wondered if they had started hooking up behind my back. It made sense. Younghoon was pushing me away for Hyunjoon. I felt hollow inside knowing that. I walked away.

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I had followed Hyunjoon once more and saw that he stopped at Juyeon's door. "You actually came. Wonderful." He ushered Hyunjoon in and closed the door. It was like Younghoon all over again, except now I've lost the man who always doted on me even when it wasn't necessary. I missed that. I quickly texted Haknyeon who replied with "I'm busy". I tried Changmin who happened to have some spare time.

"You look...great." "You don't have to lie." "What's wrong...?" "I think Hyunjoon is going behind my back like I did." "Woah, wait. With who? Why? Explain." I tugged on my hair then sighed. "All of my friends, except you. He was with Younghoon last week and he entered Juyeon's room and Hak said he was busy. He's never busy at this time." "Maybe you're thinking too much of it. He's probably just talking to-" I held Changmin by his collar then immediately released him. "S-Sorry..." "I think you need to go rest and clear your mind." He lifted me up by my arm and dragged me back to my room.

I had woken up then wondered when I fell asleep. Changmin was no longer in the room, so I assumed he left after I knocked out. I didn't feel like being alone, so I called Hyunjoon to come over. Soft knocks were eventually heard and he entered with a smile. "Chang told me not to bother you as you were asleep. I'm guessing you're okay now?" He checked my temperature against his own and it made me winder what Changmin told him. "What's up love?" "I was lonely..." I wrapped my arms around his waist and hid my face in his chest. "It warms my heart that I was the one you called..." I momentarily froze. Did he know something? I had never felt so worried in his presence before. "You're the one I always call..." He kissed the top of my head as he rubbed my back. "Mhm..."

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I thought everyone would've been enthralled by the idea of having our own Halloween party. "It's not that we don't want to, we just prefer to go partying that day." Everyone except Sangyeon and Kevin had sided with Younghoon. "Sorry bud." I was still surprised that Hyunjoon decided to go as well. "I'll just spend Halloween with them." "Actually, I can't. I have a lot of things to do, so no one can reach me once I start." "Oh." Everyone else had walked away and only Sangyeon and I were left. "So, see you then. My room or yours?" "Yours..."

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I stabbed my food then was stopped by Sangyeon. "Either eat or don't eat. Take your frustrations out on a pillow." He released me and I couldn't help but admire his authoritative side. "I didn't think everyone would bail on us today...What's so great about parties anyway? They're just places to get drunk and become a single parent." I was upset and I wasn't afraid to make it known. "Even my boyfriend went! I bet he's sneaking behind my back and-" I stopped. Why was I getting upset for? I did the exact same thing to him. I didn't say anything else and decided to eat. "I'm sure Hyunjoon is being responsible." I sighed then looked at him. He seemed engrossed in his phone and something on it caused a flurry of emotions to appear on his face.

"You want to stay the night? Roomie's staying with his girl." "I guess. Why all of a sudden?" "Bonding time. I'd like to get to know my best friend's friend better." Friend? Is that was I was to Younghoon? I didn't even know what we were and everything we did was beyond just pure friendship. My mind wandered back to how he gently held me. The feeling of his soft lips on mine and on my neck. Wandered back to how he skillfully and gently jerked me off. I started to crave it again. "You're starting to drool...Why don't you eat if you're so hungry?" "Oh, yeah..." I wiped away the drool then started eating again.

I swung my legs back and forth as Sangyeon worked on something on his computer. My mind wander to the party and then Juyeon. I missed getting drunk with him and having intense make out sessions. They were rough, but exciting. It kept me wanting more to the point we'd nearly pass out from lack of air. Was Hyunjoon now doing that with him? Was Younghoon giving him the same pleasures as he did me? I felt something on my face and saw that Sangyeon had moved his thumb across my cheek. "You're crying..." "Am I?" "What's troubling you?" "Nothing..." I curled up next to him in hopes of falling asleep.