Will,
I have never been any good with words. Ever since I can remember, I never talked to anyone to express my feelings. I was always intimidated by people. When I had to speak, my mind went blank and I forgot how to find my voice. Words ran away from my lips just as if it were fish trying to be caught with your bare hands. Between my mouth and my mind, there was a connection error.
Considering that, it's understandable that I'm not an expert on the topic. Why talk if I could stay silently in peace? I was never part of a group and never tried to make friends of any kind. I stepped aside and became a sort of ghost, I was there unnoticed. Can't complain, at least didn't have to either talk about personal stuff or hear someone else telling me personal stuff. Pretty much heaven and hell at the same time.
Then you appeared with your emails. I won't deny it, at first I wanted you to leave me alone. You and your stupid private agenda didn't seem real to me. Then I understood it is. You're the most transparent person I've ever met. And when I came to notice, it was too late. I was interested in someone else's life and was talking about mine.
I've never considered writing about my private issues. Now I get it helps a lot, especially to someone like me. There is no connexion error between my fingers and mind. I can tell from your letter that you go through the same story when it comes to writing. We may be more alike than we thought. Maybe I'm wrong, but meeting each other was fate.
Writing is way much easier than talking. Not even drugged I'd be able to say any of this to your face. Anyway, it's easier communicating with you than with any other person. I just hope to be trusting the right person. I hope I don't regret it.
The thing is I read your letter. That's why I'm doing this. After I finished reading I felt obliged to grab a paper and write this kind of answer I still don't get. I don't know, just felt I needed to answer in paper just as you did.
Forget about being cheesy, I've outranked you, and believe me, I didn't want to.
I feel freer now.
In case you wanted to know, not being able to see you at school was pretty much the only thing I missed. Don't worry, not in my agenda being absent again. That day I was almost dying in bed, so I have an excuse.
Nico.
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After safeterra told me about some silly mistakes I made, I ended up editing some parts. Hope you like it.
Car 🧡
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It's curious the way destiny plays. Two peculiar people among others and related to each other can live in the same space for an hour each week and not know of the existence of the other. Until there is a break in the routine of one of them and the...
