His broken beauty (a Luke Hemmings fanfic)

Hes the solution to my anxiety... Wait whaaaa???

Okay so I know I haven't kept my weekly update promise, but there has been A lOT going on. Im currently right in the middle of moving, and just a lot of stuff.... So please just be patient.

This weeks song of the week is also 'the long way home' by of course 5SOS.

And dont worry I know this one is kinda short, but its only a filler chapter to get into the kinda backstories.

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I refused to leave lukes side the rest of the afternoon. Constantly clinging to him. It didnt matter if we were laying in his bunk, or sprawled out on the floor in the lounge while I watched the boys play xbox. As they were playing id lay between his legs with my back against his chest, and his arms wrapped tightly around me. I could feel his warm breath on my neck when ever hed laugh or talk to the guys as they played. Every once in a while he would hand his controller to one of the others and just hold me as if, if he let go of me even for a minute I would disappear. Everytime he would do that I would lay my head back on his shoulder and smile at him relaxing as he placed a gentle kiss on my forehead. It wasnt until I felt, more than heard, his stomach begin to rumble that I realized that he and the guys were probably starving since they hadnt eaten since before I woke up, and suggested that we get some dinner. Ashton beamed as he suggested that we go to an italian place he heard about.

I went to the restroom so I could freshen up while they made the necessarry arrangements. I decided to try and put a few more waves in my hair real quick by putting a light spray of hair spray and rolling it between my fingers. It actually looked really cute, especially when I put some light eye make up on. But as I looked around the small bag that Gemma had given me earlier I was reminded that we would have to go get my stuff before the guys left town. So when I walked back out I decided I would bring it up on the way. "Hey so umm guys..." I was cut off by Michael looking over and being all dorky, but Luke saw that I was being serious and quickly got him to stop. "Go ahead babe, what is it," he asked me quietly after Mikey finally stopped. "I was just wondering if we could go by my apartment and get my stuff tomorrow, i know were leaving in a few days...." I couldnt help the tears that began to fill my eyes as I let my voice fade. Ashton shifted slightly as both he and Luke quickly wrapped their arms around me. This time I couldnt stop it as the silently streamed down my face, and I burried my face in Lukes chest while clinging to him and Ashton both. So many things had happened in that dreadful place I was truly terrifed of going back now, but I knew I would have to at some point. "Hey, shhhh. Well all go with you ok. Nothing will happen" I looked up and Calum was smiling while he played with my hands. "Yeah, we're all here for you," michael chimed in. "Im so glad I have you guys, because I honestly dont know how Ill make it through this, but I know I will with you beside me. " I said quietly as I looked around at all four of them. Wanting to be able to curl into all of their arms at once, and let them comfort me.

But I knew I couldnt do that, especially as we pulled up to the restaurant finally. I felt Lukes hang firmly grasp mine as we saw a few fans already gathered outside. I had already told him that I have slight social anxiety problems combined with the fact that I can be slightly claustrophobic makes being swarmed a really big deal for me. I was beginning to freak out already when he whispered, "hey just stay between me and Ashton ok, and keep your head down. Well be inside before you know it." I nodded and grasped his hand tightly feeling my anxiety begin as we stepped out of the van. They quietly pulled my down the sidewalk and through the doors of the restaurant. It wasnt until we were at our table that I finally looked up again. Luke smiled at me as he kissed my hand and whispered, "see it wasnt too bad right," i just smiled and quickly picked my seat between him and Ashton. It was nice to be able to enjoy dinner and just relax. We were almost finished with our dessert and Mikey and Ashton began talking about which movie to watch when we got back to the bus when my anxiety came back as I realised we'd have to go back outside. It was worse this time too since there were probably going to be even more fans there now.

I closed my eyes and put my head in my hands trying to simply focus on calming down when Luke put his hands on mine trying to pull them away." Babe hey look at me..." He trailed off gently pushing my face up so he could see my eyes, "im right here ok. And Im not going to let them hurt you, none of us will. We'll be right beside you the entire time." I noticed the others were nodding in agreement. "I dont know Luke.." I trailed off but before I could finish Ashton was standing right in front of me. "What if we carried you? Would that help any" he questioned. I was just about to answer when Luke caught my eye, "maybe if luke did," I barely even whispered. Before I even knew what was happening I was being lifted onto Lukes back and we were walking towards the door. I quickly burried my face in his neck, and Ashton reached around to put headphones on my head, and played some calming music to drown eveything else out. I instantly relaxed against Luke and let myself fall asleep in his strong arms. The next thing I knew I was being tucked into his bunk as the others messed around in the lounge. I felt Luke begin to pull away when I reached out and grabbed his arm. He turned around quickly and smiled down at me. "Cuddle" was all I could get to come out as I smiled back at him making 'grabby hands' like a toddler. He just giggled and wrapped himself around me like a giant teddy bear. I laid my head against his chest completly relaxed. The last thing I heard before I fell asleep again was luke whispering 'i love you princess, and I will make you see how amazing you really are I swear.'

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Once again I know its short and kinda crap, but I needed a filler.

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