Little Infinities

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The thing about being an adult, 

Is bills, and Kids,

Which is ironic because,

When you're a kid,

The biggest problem was other kids,

How you looked,

How you smelled,

How you,

Never mind,

You certainly get the point,

What I am saying is,

You don't necessarily have bills when under 18,

You could,

But you're parents probably pay them,

Sure you're 16,

You have a job that pays 10 dollars an hour,

But you're parents want you to ve happy,

So they pay your bills. 

Being an adult it's simple but very complicated,

When a guy turns 21,

Everyone expects him to get drunk off his tail end,

Same as a woman,

But when I turn 21,

I will have a get together like my past birthdays,

The point of this is I am 20,

I have no job,

I have no girlfriend,

I have no car,

I have like 5 best friends,

That's all my fault.

Listen,

There's this girl,

I believe I love her,

But the problem is,

She's younger than me, 

So it feels weird because being almost 20,

I want nothing to go wrong,

All I want to do is,

Do what she says,

Write her sappy love poems,

And The Princess Bride,

But,

Something will happen,

The feelings will get in the way of all that,

Feelings I can't control because Inside,

I am just a 13 year old discovering how my body works,

And discovering her,

And that be wrong, 

Because I am 20, 

She is younger,

I like that we're friends,

But this charade cannot go much longer,

I love this girl,

But I simply cannot be with her,

I simply cannot,

Because I am 20,

A lonely,

A lonely,

20 year old boy.