Call On Me

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Arianna

I've been going to therapy for a damn month and I see no difference. My wound healed and but I can't shake this feeling of being useless.

All I keep thinking about is the future. What if i meet the man of my dreams and we get married and boom he cheats on me with a woman that's able to give him biological children.

I laid back in my bed, stirring into deep thought. Lately that's all I've been doing is just thinking. I don't even eat like I used to or laugh like I used to.

Babyjoe comes over alot with food for us both. A month ago I would eat my food and still dig in his food because food always taste better when it's not mine.

I haven't even been watching the kids either. I told Kentrell I need a break but the honest truth is I don't know if I can stand to look at beautiful children that love me knowing I'll never have any. Them babies have became apart of my world and I got a real love for them but my mind just isn't in the right place right now.

Nisha texts me everyday and let's me know Kayden asks for me and that's the one thing at the moment that can put a smile on my face while simultaneously break my heart.

Babyjoe

I stopped by Kentrell house to check on Arianna today, i came early so I can be here by the time she gets back from therapy.

I walked in seeing Kendell, Kentrell, and Zoey already here. Kentrell was sitting in front of them talking about something serious looking.

"Yo gang" I yelled they way, nodding. They said wassup back and I jogged upstairs to Arianna room.

I walked in seeing her on her bed. She must be skipping therapy today because she has it everyday for 11am to 12pm. I closed the door behind myself and although she was looking in my direction she hasn't seem to notice me.

Lately she been in like this depressed stage and it's hard trying to cheer someone up with no motivation but she did it for me so I owe her this one. When I lost my uncle she didn't leave my side and I know how I can get when I'm in my feelings. So who would I be to leave her side?

"Hey baby" I kissed her cheek, snapping her out of her thoughts.

"Hey Jospeh" She twirled her necklace, finally making eye contact with me.

Yeah I know something really wrong, she calling me by my real name.

I know what can cheer her up. I pulled out my bag of loud and a blunt. "How was ya day?"

"How it looks" she plopped her arms down on her side with an expressionless face.

I put the weed into the backwood, keeping eyecontact with her as I rolled it. Her lips formed into a smile and a chuckle came out.

"What's so funny big head?"

"Remember what I told you the first time you gave me head?"

I tried thinking back but my memory was blank. I smoke too much to remember anything, shit I don't remember what color draws I had on yesterday. "I can't remember bae"

"What's in yo hand?"

I looked down at my L then the memory came back to me. "Lick my pussy how you lick them backwoods?"

"Yeah" She leaned over laughing hysterically.

I pulled a lighter out of my pocket, sparking the blunt. I took 2 hits then passed it to Arianna.

After her 4th hit she was high as a bitch. The best part was now she was more talkative so I could see where her head was at.

We smiled until the blunt became a roach. She had her head leaning on my arm as we gazed at the ceiling.

"I just feel like a fuck-up. And it ain't cute to be hopping around on crutches I feel ugly and when I go out in public I feel like everybody looking at me"

"You still beautiful. Sexy. Lovable and my favorite girlfriend" I put the roach out on the window sill, sitting it in there to stay. Turning back I grabbed her face, kissing her slowly.

"Favorite?" She pulled away with her face scrunched up "You mean I'm the best one you ever had?"

"Yeah you know this" I laughed, playing it off. A nigga almost got his self caught up. "And I love you"

"I love you too", she leaned back in continuing the kiss. She parted her lips for my tongue to slide in.

The first time she moaned she pushed me back "There's people downstairs" girl fuck them we just getting started.

"I used to fuck bitches in the same room wit ma slime he know what time it is" fuck them downstairs. This my girlfriend I can fuck her anywhere I please.

No capp me and Kentrell really did used to fuck bitches in the same room when we was first coming up. We was hood stars and every bitch wanted to fuck wit a nigga from NBA or BBG.

"Ole freak ass" she shook her head, pulling off my shirt. "Lucky I love you"

"I love you too so ima need you to bust dat shit open" I tapped her inner thigh.

This time ima take it slow to show her I mean it. She really is my favorite.

Kendell

"Me? She the freak! That girl be violating me and shit tryna take my innocence"

"You snitching?" She jumped at me, making me flinch.

Kentrell laughed "Zoey why you be bitchin him?"

"I dont know" she shrugged, laughing too.

That's just how it looks to everyone else because that's how we play. In real life behind closed doors she call me Daddy.

"He just so .." she stared at me with a smirk on her face, "ughh. Boy that face is a seat" She got close, licking my ear. My chest was caving in and out as my body got hot. "Sometimes when I see him" I watched her every movement. Her teeth sank into her bottom lip "I just can't help myself"

She acting like I won't take her in one of these rooms right after this talk with Kentrell.

She gently placed a hand on my cheek "When he got a fresh cut, new fit, jewelry on, sleepy him, when he's playing fortnite .. I be ready to risk it all"

"Ziyanna Taylor-" Arianna yelled holding her hand over her heart, gasping.

"See! Arianna is my witness. Thank you" I stood up, holding my hands up in defeat.

"I dont hear or see anything" Arianna held her hands over her ears to not hear us as she walked through the living room towards the backyard.

"Anyways I don't care what y'all do mane. Momma just don't want ya ta be like me so she sent me to give y'all da talk but from the sounds of it it's too late" Kentrell stood up, pulling his pants up. He dug deep in his pocket pulling out a handful of condoms. "Jus use dese. Shit I don't need em"

"You need em more than we do. Every female you look at get pregnant" Zoey said, pushing them back to him.

We don't need em anyway, Zoey take birth control.

Teelee | Lashonda

I was sitting on the toilet with my legs shaking hoping for the best but expecting the worst.

This whole week I've been in disbelief knowing this couldn't be a possibility. I have school to finish and goals to accomplish but I had to put this thought to rest with a real answer instead of letting hopes and doubts cloud my mind.

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Early morning update

Poor Arianna