I went through high school Quote and me started talking less and less I was involved with a editing class and had a wonderful girlfriend at the time but my classes were keeping me away from her. We would meet you every other night and talk but lately she's been getting distant like she didn't want to talk to me but then I went over to her house and saw Quote fucking her. I felt so worthless like my life was a lie, that was the day I stopped looking at him I remember after school the day after I saw that I was laying under a tree listening to my music on my headphones.
"HEY!?" Yelled Quote He was standing over me I pretended not to hear him screaming over me as I listened to my music he sat down on my stomach glaring down at me I turned my head and looked up at him with my emotionless eyes.
"Listen to me!?" He yelled i smiled with a devilish grin on my face.
"How did it feel? Taking my girlfriends pussy " I asked smiling as I looked up at him.
"Please just listen to me!?" He yelled again as tears ran down his face.
"You should get a life and stop bothering me freak." I Said shoving him off me, as I got up I saw him glare at me getting up.
"I HATE YOU DIE!!??" Quote yelled running off. I smiled and felt hurt but it didn't hurt for very long. As I walk about to take a step I felt something grab the back of my shirt.
"He was a lot bigger and better than you." A woman said I glanced behind me and saw it was my current girlfriend.
"Hm keep him then Malisa." I Said as I left the school walking towards a boat dock. As I walked I heard running footsteps followed by panting and a grip around my stomach.
"Where are you going?" Asked a voice.
"None of your business." I Said.
"I'm sorry I was in heat and didn't want to ask you." He said. I stayed quiet and shook my head.
"Let go." I Asked.
"NO YOU'LL LEAVE ME?!" Quote yelled.
"Hm I already have." I Said pulling his hands off my stomach getting on the boat handing my ticket to the sailor. As I got seated in a chair near the front. I smiled and closed my eyes. Through my travels through, Europe, Germany, Japan, and Greece I learned that the foxes had a natural attraction to women, but I learned from a elder near the mountain of Killua in a small village that some of the foxes of born a certain way as in feminine like will gravitate towards male partners, I found it quite interesting. I remember asking the old hag a question when I was there.
"Elder but why does the male foxes if born extremely feminine gravitate towards other men?" I Asked.
"Tell me something boy why do your eyes look so lonely when you look at others did one break your heart before you came here?" The elder asked. I smiled softly putting my hand over my chest.
"Yeah....he did.........I loved him but I was afraid he wouldn't accept me especially because of how beautiful he is, his eyes, his smile, his laughter.....I do miss him but I won't allow myself to feel hurt like that again." I Explained.
"Over a woman is why your hateful of this man who was close to you huh boy?" The elder asked. I was shocked looking at the elder in surprise.
"U-uh how did you know?" I Asked.
"Yours eyes told me, theirs a old saying between breeding foxes and the northern winter foxes......breeding is your lust but when you yearn for someone to be by you it's love." The elder said.
"I don't need him in my life it's unnecessary just something that I think I need." I Said.
When I got home I remember what the elder said at that small little village, I wondered if I was being unjust to Quote for ignoring him and pushing him away, but he fucked my girlfriend.......I wondered if we would meet again so I began to just get involved into my tentacle research as I did I kept running into a road block thinking of Quote it plagued my head like a virus. So I decided to close off my heart, and soon after my eyes lost their spark of light they used to have. I went on with my days researching, and researching and researching, I got pent up somedays so I just called over a hooker and fucked her, I came but it was never satisfying to me it held no meaning and I didn't enjoy it, it was just a small amount of my pleasure nothing that was worth anything. If anything I felt as if I was hurting myself with each time I cummed. Felt like my body was breaking down......funny but I was my body felt weaker and I was getting worst as days progressed. One night as I was working I got a phone call from my older sister.
"Hey....."
"............"
"Miss you too Jeez your a block head."
"Thanks sis what do you want?
"Nothing Mom and Dad are worried about your health why don't you come by?"
"Fine."
That night I left to my the old building my step parents owned it was nostalgic to me it felt like remembering good memories I had but I know something that happened that night that I won't forget. When I walked into the backroom into my parents office they looked at me worried and heart broken.
"Why does your neck have stitched?" Asked my sister.
"I tried killing my self with a knife." I Said.
"Son of a!?" Yelled My older sister. I smiled and put my hand on the back of my head where my hair tentacles were I heard them whine and cry wrapping around my hand not wanting what I was about to do. I yanked hard ripping them out from the back of my head blood gushed out and I blacked out onto the floor. When I woke up I was in a hospital bed my head was bandaged and my tentacle plant that was attached to my head was around my neck sound asleep she slept soundly against me. As I put my hand over the bandages covering my eyes I felt her wrap around my hands whining loudly and rubbing against my neck I let go of the bandages and set my hands down. I knew she wanted me to rest I could always feel her presence near me. I heard footsteps and a squeak.
"Your lucky to be alive." Said Carter.
I smiled and as I did I felt him grab my neck, when he did I heard my tentacle plant cry whining louder.
"Even when she knows she can't help she cries for you Josh your own....that was given to you by your step parents." Said Carter as he let go
Of my neck he rubbed his thumb against the stitches of my neck.
"Machete huh?" He asked.
"Yeah." I Said the tentacle plant wrapped softly around my neck and purred softly falling asleep.
"Have your parents tried finding her a new master?" Asked Carter.
"I'm pretty sure......." I Said.
"She's something else now Quote doesn't know your back did you want me to pass along a message to him?" Asked Carter.
"Nothing at all we aren't friends anymore it was evident that day I left." I Explained.
"The day you left huh yeah I remember that day he came home crying sobbing, he regrets it so much even when I try sleeping with him to calm him down he gets angry and furious says it's not the same, he still wears those high knee socks and arms that you gave him." Explained Carter. I stayed silent breathing softly.
I heard the door open.
"How are you Mr. Teater?" Asked a voice. I could figure who was asking.
"I'm fine doctor." I said calmly I felt him check my vitals and leave the room.
"I wonder why my brother only want you Josh?" Asked Carter. I put my hand over the bandages covering my eyes and slowly pulled them off. As the bandages slid down my face Carter looked at me.
"What?"
"Tell me did you love him when you were kids?" Carter asked.
"I don't know I just took care of him while you were gone nothing more." I Said.
"Then tell me, how Do breeding foxes mark their mates?" Asked Carter.
I looked at him in the eyes with my emotionless, cold, dead eyes.
"Attraction, smell, taste, kiss, hickies, and...............sex"
I said.
"Your leaving out two more and I'm sure you know it all too well." Said Carter.
"Lust and protection." I Said.
"Tell me why are this last two important to a breeding fox?" Asked Carter.
"They don't want to be used just as breeding tools to the masses, they want to feel wanted and complete to find their one true mate who will satisfy them but also love them no matter what happens to them." I Explained turning my face away.
"Your his perfect match and yet you reject him." Said Carter.
"Yeah he hurt me, he doesn't deserve a second chance I'll easily just die alone or someone else will earn me instead." I Explained.
"Who would want you?" Asked Carter.
"Yeah who would I'm worthless a tool probably the reason my real parents gave me up, they knew I was a worthless child the moment they had me." I said smiling as tears ran down my face.
"Josh my brother never saw you as that he-" Carter said.
"Just stop I'm tired." I Said closing my eyes.
"Then sleep and let your body rest my friend." Said Carter
(Lowkey almost cried kinda reminded me of one of my big ex's ah I really do miss being loved doubt it'll happen again I am quit the worthless guy Haha I hope you all make your love ones feel loved and cherish them. Tell them how much you mean to them I better sleep before I have a seizure night my friends)
