Lost Addiction (Book 2)

Intoxicated Heartbreak

The last time that I had ever drank alcohol was the time Ruby took me to my first club. I enjoyed my Jack and Coke, but I never thought I would become a drinker at all. The tipsy feeling wasn't all too bad, but I've never went past it...until I met an unlikely guy (soon to be friend) on one unlucky night.

I had just finished promoting another film I did in England called New Year's Eve with Stephan Mangan. It was a British short independent film and it had a great buzz within the country. Ruby had some time off from work and had joined me during my time there. We had another two day stay before we had to head back home when Ruby wanted to venture out to the local bars in the small town. "I just want to check them out and see how they differ from Sydney, that's all," she said after I had gave her a look. I was not wanting to spend my last two days here going to some bars.

"Why don't we go sightseeing instead?," I suggested. "We both have never been in this part of Britain before and it seems only fitting that we look around and try to find interesting things about this part of the country." Ruby smirked. "That's exactly my point. Bars are interesting and you never really see the same two bars anywhere. Let's just go tonight and tomorrow we could go do all the sightseeing you want."

"Is that all you think about when you're not working? Clubs and bars?" I was starting to get a little ticked off. I could tell that Ruby was noticing. She sat by me on the bed and kissed my neck. "No baby," she said. "You know I like to have fun every chance that we get when we're not busy. And plus you need to let loose. You're constantly working and I know it's because you're trying every ounce in you to forget about your family. That's not good for your body."

Ruby was right. Whenever I was working in another film or modeling, I found a way to program my mind from thinking of any of my family issues, making it as if they didn't even exist. I was living in the moment every time. It worked out for me in that moment, but whenever I was home, it was like I couldn't escape from the thoughts.

"Well," I responded, "alcohol isn't all that good for your body either. I'm not saying you have a drinking problem babe, but I just think sometimes you need to value your free time doing other things." Ruby raised an eyebrow. "Like what?," she asked. I shook my head. "When was the last time you took me out on a date?" Ruby just sat there thinking. I rolled my eyes. "Exactly my point Ruby. You rather go to clubs or bars to drink and party. That's the lifestyle you had before we got together and I'm happy with you, believe me I am, but I don't like that side of you. I just don't." Ruby sighed and ran her fingers across her hair. "I'm not trying to make you do things you don't want to do," she said. "Baby, I would love to take you out on dinner dates and things like that, but I'm always tired to even plan stuff like that at times. Going out for a drink or two doesn't need any planning."

What the hell?! I pushed Ruby away from me and walked towards the window. "Did you really just say that?!," I exclaimed. Ruby looked confused. "Say what?" My mouth dropped. "That you rather go out for drinks than plan a date with your girlfriend just because it requires no planning? So you're too tired to make one simple reservation for us?! Are you serious right now?!" I was heated. "I really hope you didn't mean what you just told me."

"Keira, you know I didn't mean it like that." Now Ruby was raising her voice. "You're usually always working anyways. I've spent more time in our new apartment than you have, so don't come at me talking about me going out all the time! You don't even come out with me when you are home, so why do you think you have the audacity to complain about what I do with or without you?!"

I turned to face the window. The sky was sprinkling a bit as the grey clouds barely moved towards the east. A tear ran down my cheek, but I dared not to make any crying noise. I suddenly felt Ruby's hands wrap around my waist and her lips kissing my shoulders. "Baby, I'm sorry." she said, now holding me closer. I said and did nothing. Ruby continued. "Baby please say something." I nudged Ruby off me. "Just go to the bar. I know you want to," I said to her. Ruby sighed. "I'll stay," she responded. I turned to look at her and I could see that she was sad. I knew she wanted to go. "Just go. I don't want to talk to you right now."