Who Else And Other Works By: Jules L. Gonzales

"To Lose a Friend to Suicide..." By Jules L. Gonzales

That day I woke feeling rather good;

I got ready for the school day;

I swear I started in such an amazing mood.

An hour later and in rush I am tightly hugged;

A persons tear filled tell me the news that you are gone;

I couldn't believe what I was hearing and in that moment I felt so unplugged.

Gone was my dear friend and loved one to the tragic death of suicide;

Such a beautiful, wonderful and kind soul who has sadly taken their own life;

Dazed, confused and so very hurt I just stood in the crowded hall and cried.

It felt like the thoughts were running a mile a minute in my head;

I didnt want to believe that you were really gone from my life and the world;

In that moment I truly talked to god for the first time in so long and I pled.

I prayed that someone might have simply made a mistake and maybe just misheard;

That just maybe it wasn't my dear friend who took their life and was gone forever;

But the correction never came and as I went on thinking my day became so blurred.

I still cant stop hoping it was wrong and thinking about you being here my dear friend;

Even upon seeing you lay there numbingly cold yet so bitterly peaceful in your casket;

Why did a promising young life and old friendship come to horrible bittersweet end?

My dear friend I'd give anything to hug or even just see you just one last time again;

And how I'll dearly miss our talks and listening to music together during bus rides home; I think about how I could have helped if I had only known how you were in such pain.

I promise that I shall think of the good times we had though even when I start to cry;

I love you so very much my dear friend and I know you are always with me in my life;

But my dear friend I never thought that this would be how I would have to say goodbye.