Metamorphosis

Realizations

HeDi

"I just dropped Yue off to JiaQi's a while ago. So far, It was the one of the most awkward drive I've had with her. I noticed how she was trying to act normal around me but she failed miserably.

Flashback...

"Don't you have anything important to do today?" she gave me a glance while sitting stiffly at the passenger seat.

"None... but I will be hanging out with Xize for a while before heading home" I answered, my eyes never leaving the road but my senses were very aware of her discomfort.

" Oh... Okay..." she said as I secretly smiled when I saw her playing with her seat belt straps... then she suddenly looked up at me. I noticed her brows furrowed when she caught me smiling, so I smiled at her some more. I heard her cleared her throat..."Ehermmm... can I turn this on?" she asked referring to m car's sound system

"You've been doing that since forever Yueyue... why ask for permission now? I glanced at her shortly and flashed her a playful smirk as she turned the player on.

"Hiphop music filled the car as we bop our heads to the beat... I glanced at my passenger who was oblivious of the secret glances I am sneakily throwing at her and was surprised by the faint smile painted on her lips as she enjoys the music... my heart flutters... Damn.

"Oh! We're already here Di... just pull over there" she pointed at the side of the road as I parked the car.

She immediately alighted once the car came to a stop then she instantly closed the door after getting out. but before taking her leave she peaked at the car window and gave me a wave as she flashed me one of her sweetest smile that almost took my breath away.

"Thanks for the ride Didi... See you at home."

Present...

"Now, I'm here at Xize's. I have to reease all this pent up emotions before I go crazy. And if there is one person who could put up with me i this kind of situation aside from Yue... It definitely would be Xize

"What's up Di?... Problem?" my bestfriend asked as he offered me a bottle of beer. We're chilling at the balcony of his flat where he's living alone.

If there's one person who could help me clear my chaotic mind right now, it would definitely be this bespectacled guy in front of me who is leaning by the rails while I sat at a stool adjacent to him

"Yue"

"Ahhhh... Yue..." he said smiling mischievously as he drank his beer

"She told me.. she likes me."

"She did?... so what's the problem?... she likes you... you like her..." he said obviously amused at something.

"Why do I have this feeling that you are secretly laughing at me?" I him as I took a gulp at my beer. "And who gave you the idea that "i like her... I never said I like her."

"Don't give me that bullshi*t Di.. you like her... you may even be inlove with her... you're just too dense to realize it." I smiled at Xize's reply.

"I am that obvious huh?" resignation evident on my voice as I smiled at my friend "Damn you bro... you're so good at this."

"You're just too easy to read you idiot!" Xize replied with a chuckle. "If Yue says she likes you... then what's the matter?...Aren't you supposed to be happy? Your Hot BFF likes you back... If I were you I would be ecstatic."

"Believe me brother ecstatic is an understatement to describe what I'm feeling right now... I feel like I'm on top of the world knowing that Yueyue likes me back." I said smiling to myself as I imagine Yue with her round eyes staring lovingly at me.

"So what's the problem? Please Di.. cut the crap and get straight to the point... You're giving me a headache with all the suspense."

" Coz she friendzoned me dude... what's worse?... I let her...

Yue

" Why did you ask him that Yue?" jiaQi almost fainted after I told her about what transpired between Hedi and me at the rooftop.

"I just thought it was the right thing to do." I said head bowed down.

"You said you like him why did you friendzoned him if you like him? I don't really get the logic in that Yueyue." JiaQi was pacing pacing back and forth whle I sat on her bed. We are at her bedroom while waiting for SunQian to arrive.

" Jia... Didi treats me as his friend... in fact his bestest friend in the world... he said that I am special and very important to him... the fact that he sees me as one of the boys is reason enough to draw that line between us... before I fall to deep for him and end up brokenhearted and friendless knowing that he doesn't like me the way I like me."I reasoned out.

"But you didn't gave the chance to tell you how he felt?"

JiaQi is right, I didn't gave HeDi a chance to tell me how he felt. I just focused on what I was feeling that time... maybe because I was scared that he would reject me... Yeah... I was a coward like that.

"I got scared Jia... I was so scared to lose him..." I sadly admitted as Jiaqi gave me a hug to comfort me.