All I Want Is Love; book #1

You Love me Right?

       I couldn't think properly Peter killed my mom and dad. I was crying hard I couldn't control  how come I can't be love this is stupid yeah I know I'm not the prettiest fish in the sea but I'm worth. Love is all I really want I hear that stories that the cool guy falls for the nerd but that's so cliché and it's cute. I don't know but I don't think me and Lucas fit, I mean I love him but  we don't seem to be truly in love maybe it's just me. I got a text from "Ryan♡" my long time crush we haven't talked in months.

   ryan: hey how R u?

  me: this is Eleanor white.

Ryan I know dah anyways having a party Saturday night it's pool party girls MUST wear bikin or you go in the pool Naked starts at 10 come by 8. skinny dipping will be done.

  me. no thanks byeeeeeeezzzz

ryan: just come I'm like personally inviting come.

me :ugh what Ever I'll go k ttyl.

        What did I just do wait could I kiss Lucas at that party. 

No  just don't kiss him make it easy you literally moving in a year well less now try to space out of him it Will help.

  ugh why do you have to be right all the time.

    I'm you We are always right hahahaha.

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           It was the day I didn't want to come Saturday Ryans Summer bash, he had one every and I went and came back home after an hour. No I didn't wear a bikini I just didn't go in the pool I told them I had some sickness and could everyone sick. I put on my pink summer dress with my hair in a high pony tail with just some concealer eyeliner Fondation and put my black flats on.  It was 11:30 and that's when I  go for his parties and go home by 1:00.  obviously Lucas hadn't been here he left here super early  Ryan is his best friend.  Ryan sure went big this year it wasn't as trashy as the years before. I got to the kitchen because the people were dancing like crazy and i needed to escape but i didn't expect to see Lucas lips attached to Tara's lips.

         Eleanor relax this is good he's moving on i mean you never broke up but let it be it's better he's happy.

     I ran out as fast as possible but  was stopped by a strong masculine grip on my shoulder.

         "Come with me for a minute" Ryan said.

         I could tell he was drunk but you know what they say drunk sayings are sober thoughts, well I think that's the saying.

            "I think your pretty I Really like you" Ryan said.

              All of a sudden his lips were on mine and they sent sparks  flying crazy and I kissed him back.  Please don't tell me I like Ryan. Love what you got to be so freaking confusing . i ran away like Cinderella besides the slippers and stuff it was 1:00 anyway. i needed sleep i needed to think and no i wasnt going to do that.

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       The next morning i made Lucas my hangover milkshake because he had a huge one  after the milkshake kicked in he was better.

           "I went to Ryans Bash and I saw you kiss Tara" I said quickly happy to get it off my chest.

          Lucas smile faded and I soon realized that he still had feelings for her.

       "I still have feelings for her but your ALL I want I swear" Lucas said.

     "Drunk doings are sober wants" I said.

          "But I don't liker I like you" I said.

         " You love right or at least kinda  have feelings for me" Lucas said.

          "I really don't know if I love but I still have feelings but to get this of my chest  Ryan kissed me so it's all good" I said. and walked away.

    That conversation wasn't doing me any good I could feel the sadness in his eyes if only he knew how much he hurt me when I saw them kissing.

Hola I'm done with another chapter this is when you guys should start commenting on who you guys like  Ryan or Lucas don't worry Ryan will have a chapter next i think. Hope you enjoy my fast updates but the chapters are short so  it evens out i think OK bye

    stay beautiful Starlets or book readers idek.

~Chrystal