buddy; grayson d.

twenty

{song for chapter - i'm on fire by cub sport}
yes hawaiian party isn't their only song lol

kennedy

"ken!" zach yelled from the opposite side of my bedroom door, "wake up!"

it was the first day of junior year. i'd heard not so good things about it. (A/N; junior year fucking sucks i regret not dropping out sooner)

knowing grayson would be here this morning to have our annual first day of school breakfast made by my mom made this whole thing so much worse. it's weird not having dad to help with it like he would when zach and i were in elementary. ethan and grayson were still zach's best friends. they went through losing our dad with us. zach and ethan would always play with me while grayson stood in the corner pouting. and it kind of was always like that. grayson didn't like me for some odd reason. and now look where we were. funny how things work out, isn't it?

after getting ready, i began to walk downstairs, the smell of my moms delicious breakfast immediately flooding my nose as soon as i opened my bedroom door.

i walked into the kitchen, noticing that grayson wasn't here this morning. noah, zach and ethan sat the counter with half eaten plates in front of them. they all laughed as noah tried to pick a piece of egg out of his dirty blonde hair.

"sup kenny." ethan smiled as he spotted me walking down the hallway.

"hey" ethan frowns at my tone, noticing something was up with me. he was always good at telling.

i walked over to the side door to grab my bag, avoiding eye contact with any of them. i just wanted to get this day over with. i walked back around and grabbed an apple off of the counter, ready to walk out the door, but before i could step out, someone grabbed onto my arm, causing me to look back, where i saw ethan, who stood there with a sympathetic look on his face.

i turned around to face him as i looked down to the ground and pulled piece of hair behind my ear.

"what'd he do?" ethan softly asked, stuffing his hands into his pockets.

i shook my head as i looked up to ethan, "he doesn't want me" i shrug, swallowing the lump that grew in my throat at the thought of grayson.

"he's so fucking stupid." ethan muttered, shaking his head as he awkwardly looked down to the ground.

"i'm gonna go." i say, turning on my heel. ethan nods as he gives me a small rub to my back. ethan had made this gesture many times as he was my best friend for the longest time, but this time it meant the most. i'd never gone through something like this, and to have ethan here to help made me feel like i'd be okay.  i turned back and looked at ethan, quickly pulling him into a tight hug as i stood on my tip toes.

"you'll always be my best friend, e." i whisper into his ear.

"i know." he replies, unwrapping his arms from me and shooting me a warm smile, "i'll see you at school."

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when i arrived at school, i made a b line straight for the admissions office, where i received my locker code and classes, luckily i knew where most of my classrooms already were due to two previous years of experience.

my homeroom went by like any homeroom, and i met up with ethan afterwards to walk to our psychology class.

by second block, i hadn't yet seen grayson, but i'd seen ava, who sent me a glare every time i came into her vision, which was often because her locker was across the hall from mine.

then to my luck, as i stood at my locker between third and fourth block, grayson turned down my hallway, looking for ava. his hair wasn't styled today as it fell over his forehead in the perfect messy quiff. he wore a black long sleeved knit shirt and a pair of light acid wash jeans and white chuck taylors. he looked gorgeous as always.

as he approached ava at her locker, his gaze turned to me and i quickly looked away, slamming my locker door shut as i walked away in the other direction.

when lunch rolled around, i stood in the empty hallways, hoping to finally gain some peace. i liked being alone. as i stood at my locker, munching on some chips while i looked down at my phone, the metal door leading to the cafeteria opened five feet away from me, out walking grayson. he noticed me right away, a unreadable expression on his face as we made eye contact and then began to proceed to walk down the hallway without saying a word to me.

this was gonna be hard....

hiiii

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