Endless Lovemaking

27.

The next morning I woke up running to the bathroom. My stomach felt weak as I threw up all of my insides. As soon as I felt like I had thrown it all up and went to wash my face more just came pouring out of me.
"Baby are you ok" lee asked from the bathroom door.
"Yes. I don't know what's wrong I think I ate something bad yesterday" I said.
"Do you need me to get you anything" he asked.
"No I'm fine" I said turning on the shower.
My stomach still felt weak as I showered and scrubbed my body. Once I got out of the tub I felt lightheaded so I decided I wasn't going to work and got back into bed.
I ended up falling asleep and woke up to Lee shaking me. It was well into the afternoon and I had slept half the day away.
He handed me a bag with a ginger ale and some broccoli cheddar soup. As soon as I opened the soup and the smell hit my nose I was running to the bathroom again. I threw up my guts until yellow flem came up .
"Maybe you should take this" Lee said behind me.
"No I don't like medicine" I said without even looking.
"It's not medicine" he said as he tossed the pregnancy test down into the sink.
"I'm not pregnant Lee" I said trying to convince myself more than him.
"Just take it babe. It's a possibility " he said.
I grabbed the box and read it back and front trying to stall for time. Lord I hope I wasn't pregnant. Lee and I were not on steady ground and now was not the right time to start a family. I wanted to get married first, travel the world, go places and see things. I couldn't do that with a baby. What about my career? My life? My independence? No I couldn't be pregnant.

I sat down on the toilet and took the stick from the box. My heart was beating rapidly as I peed on the stick. We both sat in silence as we waited the few minutes for the results.
My heart nearly sank through my chest and came out of my asshole as I looked at the stick. POSITIVE 🤦🏽‍♀️
Why couldn't we have been more careful. All I could think was here I was about to create a life and start a family with the man that I love and there's another woman out in the world claiming to be doin the same. Damn! Where do we go from here?