What I never told you

Home sweet home

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Y/N POV

A few days later I was allowed to go home once again. I didn't run a fever anymore and the doctor said that it was okay to do daily tasks once again. Colin didn't visit us anymore, none talked about him and he didn't have contact with any of us. I knew - thanks to Matt, that he was still in the city, but none knew why or what he was up to. The days passed and I tried to enjoy the time I had with Adam while my belly grew. We went on dates, began to know each other better, and made it official that we were engaged. While my private life was blooming, our band began to get more and more attention. It was busy and exciting at the same time. Today Adam and I agreed on having a shopping date - I was already eight months pregnant and the outfits for our concerts didn't fit anymore. 

,,Finally home again." I groaned as I let my body sink on the couch. Adam was carrying my bags, just like a gentleman, and placed them the ground. He helped me to get my shoes off while I took my laptop - I had something new on my mind, new Lyrics and I had to write them down now. After I was happy with what I wrote down I called Adam ,,Yeah?'' he asked me, approaching me with a glass filled with water. I smiled at him while I took the water and first drank a bit,,Listen to this,'' I asked him and began to sing out loud ,,Here I am, baby here I am...." my lips were moving from alone, I was singing, all my emotions, all my love was in these words. I still didn't know for who I was singing. Was it for the fans, who were excited about our new songs? For my baby, the one I was carrying below my heart, or for Adam? The person who was the most important to me? Or perhaps just for myself? I stopped singing, I was out of breath, and looked over to Adam, whose eyes were filled with love and ave ,,Wow,'' he just said and kissed me ,,This was so good, Queen. But, you're so out of breath,'' he said and gave me the glass once again ,,I honestly think that you should stop going on stage until the baby is born and save your energy,'' he told me, putting his hand over mine. My heart stopped for a minute and I think that my face got all pale. Did he just ask me to stop? 

,,I can't believe that you are asking me to stop. Music is my life, the part of me I love the most. I can't stop now, not yet,'' I told him. I could feel my anger growing ,,I didn't tell you to stop and stay at home forever, but just until you give birth, Y/N, you will go into labor soon, you should rest. You are out of breath just after one song,'' It was senseless, we didn't have the same opinion. And for me this was heartbreaking, this argument was so bad. I didn't know if it was because I was just so hurt over his words or because of the hormones ,,I am going on stage today,'' I told him and got up, it did take me some time and yes, I was exhausted, but I didn't have a concert daily ,,No, Y/N, you're pregnant, please think about your health, and if you don't want to think about your body, think about our baby!'' Adam tried to grab my hand, I knew that he was worried, and part of myself also knew that he was right. My brain did, but somehow I couldn't express it ,,And because this is my body and MY baby, I will decide for myself, not you. You're not even the father or my husband,'' I snapped and took my bags. As soon as I was in my room, tears were flowing. What did I say? 

We were both ready and both angry. The atmosphere was so bad, that if someone had lighted a candle, it would have exploded. Adam didn't talk to me and when I asked him to help me to put on my shoes, he ignored me. And hell, I hated it but he was so right. I was walking with my shoes for the concert in my hands, wearing my shoes for the apartment since I couldn't take them on myself ,,Can you-'' I was just about to ask him if he could carry the heavy stuff when he suddenly took his stuff and walked away. I probably looked pretty dumb. I was just about to take the rest when Doris spotted me.