What I never told you

Feelings

Adam's POV 

Colin was just smirking at Chris, our new Singer. After a while, Chris was feeling uncomfortable and began to shift from one foot to another ,,Hi, uhm, why are you staring at me? Do I have something in my face?'' he asked and tried to check his hair with his hands and began to stroke his cheek - when he was assured, that there was nothing that could have led Colin to stare at him, he smiled himself ,,If it's love, at first sight, I am sorry to tell you that I have no interest in a long-distance relationship,'' the sudden playfulness in his voice made Doris laugh - something that didn't happen that often. However, Colin didn't find it as funny as she did and instead snapped at her ,,Is it that funny?!'' 

Doris glared at him, she was boiling but didn't say anything. Colin didn't smile anymore and everyone was aware, that there was tension. But perhaps there was tension since someone who suddenly left appeared once again. 

,,We should all head home, it's late." Owen interrupted the odd atmosphere and walked towards the door. He was getting angry and I noticed, but I also knew, that he was trying to give us space. He snapped once again - probably telling Lisa and the others to get moving. Nobody said anything and instead observed us once again before going towards the door. 

,,Can you please call me as soon as you make sure that she's fine? I want to see her too but I will give you guys space and time to heal. If you need anything just call me, okay?'' Lisa asked me, I thanked her before I observed her go out. She looked at Colin once again and then turned away. I was kind of happy, that she seemed to be loyal to us, but I also guessed that she was trying to keep her poker face. 

,,Are you in the mood for a drink? Just to think about the past,'', Colin asked me. I wasn't sure if this was a way to get revenge on me. I observed him, and all I could feel was anger, how could he ask me to drink with him after what happened? Didn't he feel anything for Y/N? My hands formed a fist as I kept looking at him. I could still remember the day we agreed on our fake dating, her tears. How could he expect me to drink with him ,,No, I will go home, and wait for the visiting hours and will then meet my pregnant girlfriend,'' I told him firmly, realizing suddenly that I had nothing on me except for my keys and phone ,,Well, at least let me drive you, I know that you can't even pay a cab,'' he offered. 

,,This isn't my fucking house,'' I hissed after he stopped in front of the bar we usually met ,,As if you can sleep now, you need something strong after what happened today,'' Colin sweet-talked me. He wasn't wrong, but apparently, I didn't notice how much he made me drink until I woke up again with a big headache. I groaned as I tried to open my eyes, just to close them again because of the shining sun on my face. My hands moved to Y/N's part of the bed, needing her warmth - 

,,Y/N?!'' I gasped, regretting my movements. I quickly looked over to the clock, realizing that Colin fucked up pretty much. It was almost three in the afternoon when I finally arrived at the hospital. Not only did he hide my phone, but he also made sure to hide my keys, making it harder to get to the hospital. When I finally reached her room, I was boiling with anger. As if nothing could make this situation worse, the first I saw when I opened Y/N's room was Colin. The father of the baby she's pregnant with. The boyfriend she told that she would wait. the person who hurt her the most and the same person who was able to take everything away from me. ,,Adam? Baby, are you okay?'' Y/N asked me worriedly. She didn't look good and was pretty pale but she still worried about me. But instead of feeling happy, that she still cared about me I felt jealousy. He was here before me, he talked with her before me about things I didn't know. 

,,Adam? Come here, I want to hug you,'' Y/N said softly and looked at Colin ,,Thank you for coming, I can't see you off but I know that you are pretty good at leaving by yourself, I believe you know where the door is,'' she told him with a calm voice. None would have guessed that she just told him to fuck off and I think that Colin himself was surprised about her reaction. But instead of caring about him, I approached her and kissed her, my lips on hers, enjoying the warmth and showing off that I could do something he couldn't. Colin didn't say anything and I didn't see him leave, I just heard the door. 

Y/N POV

As soon as Colin closed the door I slapped Adam's arm ,,You were drinking?! I can smell you, you know? And now I even have this taste on my lips,'' I told him. I wasn't angry, I was just...sad that he wasn't here earlier. But I also knew that Colin was at fault. I looked at Adam, who looked pretty bad ever since he stepped a foot into the room and I guessed, that he was worried. 

,,You don't need to be worried, we didn't talk much,'' I whispered, taking his hand in mine. Colin indeed didn't talk much and I also didn't ask him why he was suddenly sitting next to me. 

,,So, you are telling me, that you didn't miss him? While he was here, didn't you long for him?'' Adam asked me, and I was pretty disappointed that he was asking me that. But I also could understand his worry. And since we somehow still didn't label our relationship, I couldn't be angry at him ,,I didn't even know that he was here until he stepped into this room, so no, I didn't want him or missed him. But I did miss you,'' I told him, placing my hand against his cheek. I did notice, that my feelings for Colin were real in the past, and I did miss his presence, but I didn't miss him as a lover. The feelings I had for Colin were different, genuinely, but these feelings also made me realize that I did fall in love with Adam, and there was no way that I would replace him with Colin. 

,,I want to marry you,'' he whispered, coming closer to me ,,but that isn't what I wish the most,'' he told me, and for a second I feared he would break up with me ,,I want you to be happy, I want this baby to be happy. And if he makes you happy, I will go and call him,'' Adam said. His voice was trembling and honestly, I was already on the verge of tears ,,Are- are you serious? He left me, he didn't care for my happiness when he chose his own. He will always have a special place in my heart,'' I was really tearing up ,,but in these past four months Adam, I slowly began to fall in love with you. I began to long for you, miss you, search for you...I love you, and I want you. I am yours. Don't ever think that I will leave you,'' and with that, I lost it. We both began to tear up. We sat together for a long time, just holding hands, until we calmed down. And after we dried up our tears, we kissed each other and made it official for each other - we truly loved each other.