Give Me A Reason

Lust (Eight)

I laid on my bed, the floral scent of my detergent surrounding me. It was the first time I had been able to relax all week and it felt nice. Just then the doorbell rang. I was so comfortable I contemplated letting whoever it was think no one was home. With a sigh, I rolled over and went to open the door. "Alyssa," a delivery guy asked, I nodded and he turned back to his truck. Two guys stood holding large vases full of beautifully arranged roses of every color. "Can we bring these in?" The guy was facing me again. I held open the door for them as they brought in the flowers. I struggled to think of what the flowers could be for. As soon as the vases were placed on the counter, the men left. I noticed a small card on one of the vases, it read:

Happy Birthday my darling! I'm so proud of you for everything you'be grown up to accomplish. Your father and I are sorry we couldn't be here with you. I hope you understand. We love you!

Mom + Dad

I placed the card down back to where I had found it and went back to my room. It was another year my parents had promised to be here and didn't show up for my birthday. I sat on my bed waiting for the feeling of disappointment or sadness to come but it didn't. It was a nice day out though and with the frustration of not feeling emotions towards my parents' empty promises, I changed for a run.

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The sun beat down mercilessly as I sat on the bench in the park. My run had helped to clear my head, but now the thought slowly started to come back. I looked out ahead and saw the multitudes of people sitting on the grass. Some were families and others were couples. For the first time I actually felt alone. The ringing of my phone startled me out of my thoughts. Looking at the caller ID I saw it was Kevin. Butterflies fluttered in my stomach as I answered, "Hello?"

"Hi, it's me, uh, Kevin. Are you doing anything today?" His voice was more nervous than usual, which I found extrememly adorable. "I don't have any plans, I just took a run so I'm basically just sittin on th bench in the park right now." My heart beat faster as I spoke. "Would you want to maybe go to the beach?" A million reasons why I shouldn't rushed through my brain but I dismissed them. "Yes, that sounds amazing," I smilled as I spoke even though I knew he couldn't see. "Alright, I'll come pick you up in an hour." I could hear the relief in his voice. "See you soon," I said and hung up. I didn't think it counted as a date, but it was still better than anything else. 

Time passed quickly. I jogged home and took a shower. I should've been rushing but I spent as much time as I could washing my hair and body, by the time I stepped out of the shower my fingers were all pruney. I had just stepped out when I heard the doorbell ring. "Oh no," I quickly wrapped the towel around myself and my hair in another one. Looking through the peephole I saw Kevin standing in palm tree printed swim trunks and a white v-neck tshirt. "Screw it," I said to myself and opened the door. "Hi, come in. Sorry I just got out of the shower, give me a few minutes." He walked in and looked me up and down standing naked under my towel. I felt heat all over my body as his gaze lowered. He grinned and shook his head, "hi." I closed the door behind him as he walked into the kitchen. When I walked in after him he turned around, a questioning expression on his face. I looked over and saw the flowers still sitting on the counter where I'd left them. "The flowers? There from my parents, just ignore them." He nodded, "do they always send you random flowers?"

Before I could stop myself I laughed, "definitely not." He looked even more confused than before. "What are they for then?" I sighed, "there are a few different things depending on how you look at it. A gift or an apology from my parents for missing my birthday again this year." The look of surprise on his face was comical. He stared at me in disbelief as if I had told him a huge secret. "How did I not know today was your birthday?" A somber expression crossed his face as he asked. I shrugged loosening the towel wrapped around my body. No sooner had I shrugged it fell to the floor. It was my turn to be in shock. There I stood, naked, in front of Kevin. I was frozen from mortification. Kevin came closer and knelt down in front of me grabbing the towel. He wrapped it back around my body and held it so it covered me. "I'm sorry," I whispered. He shook his head, "don't be, I'll let you go and get dressed, sorry I kept you." I was so embarrassed but he was so sweet and it made me feel better. 

I walked quickly to my room and changed into my bathing suit, it was a light pink bikini with white circles, then threw a white sun dress on top of it. My beach bag was already packed since I'd packed it before showering so I grabbed it and walked back to the kitchen. Kevin still stood in the same spot I left him in, but he was turned away from me. I admired him for a second. The tan of his skin and darkness of his hair with the subtle highlights from the sun. The loose fitting tshirt he wore hid the curves of his muscles and I yearned to feel them underneath my fingertips. Shaking my head I walked over to him. "You ready to go?" He turned around and smiled his gorgeous smile. "You're so beautiful, you know that?" I could feel myself blushing and looked away to hide it. After a moment I felt his hand gently turn my face to look at him. The way he looked into my eyes caused butterflies to flutter in my stomach. I felt my mouth go dry as he rest his hand on my neck and looked at my lips then back to my eyes. Before I thought about it, I wrapped my arms around his neck and raised myself enough for my lips to reach his. Once again I felt his tongue explore my mouth and the tightening feeling in my stomach. 

As we kissed, he picked me up and I wrapped my legs around his hips. I held onto him, my body electrified from all of the contact it shared with his, as he walked over and laid me on the couch. His body hovered over mine and I missed the connection as I looked into his eyes once again. He leaned forward to kiss me again and I felt his erection through his swim trunks press against me. I let out a gasping moan and rubbed myself against him as our lips reconnected. He thrust his hips and I couldn't help myself as another moan escaped me. Our kisses became more passionate, more lustful and I could feel myself wanted more and more of him. 

The shrill of my phone ringing brought us out of our daze and I panted for air, my heart beating fast. This is what it felt like. To want something so much with someone, but for it to not be completely there. I wanted Kevin. I wanted him so badly, but he wasn't mine. Not yet.