When He Became Mine | COMPLETE

Chapter 4

Keira's POV

Michelle knew. She knew that I loved my brother's best friend while I tried to convince her that it was never meant to be, that it was a childhood crush, and I was more than happy to be marrying Ethan. She wanted me to tell Jason, to make things right between us and Ethan, but I'll admit it: I wasn't brave enough to tell Jason my real feelings.

I sighed and lay out on the grass in the backyard of my house, covering my eyes with my arm. Graduation was officially over; I now had a degree in piano performance. The wedding date was now just a little over a month, but I was confused. Confused with how my wedding now seemed perfect once I saw what the florist had done to the centerpieces and tried on my dress for a third time. Confused with the feelings I felt toward my brother's best friend and my fiancé.

I didn't know what to do.

Jason had always been there for me. He was my best friend, and we've turned to each other for any problem that couldn't be solved. I told him secrets I couldn't tell my parents or my brother or my girlfriends as he did to me. I loved him since I was sixteen and he had come home from college for Christmas, excited to show me an article that had been published on the front page of his school's newspaper, his expressions like a little boy's.

But there was Ethan. I had myself convinced I could only love him as a good friend until he snuck out of a dinner with his parents just to take me to see a movie he knew I was dying to see. I had scolded him for ditching his parents while he merely laughed and stroked my cheek, saying we both needed a break from family members, friends, and wedding plans. He had taken me out for an ice cream sundae after the movie, letting me eat the last of it, and had joked that we should do it again when we can't stand being around the kids.

Taking that night and mixing it with the cake tasting and all the little things I remember him doing (from when I couldn't stand being around my wedding planner to when my teachers pushed me until I felt like having a breakdown), and what did I get?

Feelings for Ethan.

Love sucks.

"Mom wants to know the name of the hotel the guests will be staying at, Squirt."

I groaned and dropped my arm, opening my eyes to see my brother hovering over me and waiting for my answer. "Can we not talk about the wedding right now?" I asked miserably.

Caleb frowned. "What's wrong?"

"Nothing."

"Well, you're the one who doesn't want to talk about your own wedding." Caleb sat down next to me, lying on his stomach and staring at me deeply. "What's wrong?"

I sighed and rubbed my temples. "I'm confused," I confessed.

"About what?"

I hesitated. Could I really tell my brother that I was in love with his best friend? "Who I should marry."

"You're marrying Ethan."

"Yes, I know, but..." I picked a blade of grass, tearing it in half. "I love Ethan. I mean, when he first proposed to me, I thought I could only love him as a good friend. But then I thought back to everything he's done to me, and I can't help but develop more feelings for him. I know I'll be happy with him and he'll be happy with me, but then there's this other guy. A guy I've known longer and love him more than a brother or a best friend. My roommate figured it out, and I told her I did, but now..." I trailed off, staring down at my hands.

"But now you don't know anymore," Caleb finished for me.

I nodded. "Exactly," I said quietly. "And it took me until today to realize my feelings for both. It's stupid. I feel like such a bitch about it because it's like I'm one of those characters in novels or TV shows where they don't know what they want. That usually leads to cheating."