Crush On A Careworker

Tracys Past 💔

'Again?' They all say I smile the film has that power on you I couldn't count the amount of times me and cam watched it!

'Guys you've all stayed up two hours after your bedtime' Mike says

'but it was worth it' lily says cuddling closer into me...I smile but then tears stream down my face

'Tracy what's the matter?' Mike says

'Nothing' I say as I stand up and go outside watching the stars light up the sky I hear Liam come out

'alright? Not crying over a soppy love story are ya?' He says

'yeah that's it' I say wiping my tears in a hurry he takes my hand

'it's okay to cry remember?' He says smiling Mike comes out and tells Liam to go in with the others which he does

'thank you' I say he turns round and smiles

'don't worry about it' he says

'is she okay?' I hear the girls say to him

'yeah mikes looking after her' he says

'why's she getting so het up for anyway?' Elektra says lily rolls her eyes

'you don't understand and never would Elektra! she told me one night the reason she cries every time she watches this film...'

FLASHBACK

'Fine go! See if I care!!' Tracy shouts as Cam leaves with a huff slamming the door behind her I could hear Tracy crying from my new room turns out smiling all day makes you so sad at night..

I peek round the door 'go away I don't wanna talk about it!' Tracy says

'lily wait...I'm sorry' she says patting her bed and I sit down beside her

'what's wrong?' I ask her knowing I'm about to be told it's nothing

'it's nothing' she says wiping her tears giving me a weak smile

See?

I give her a look raising my eyebrow and she smiles

'I was just thinking..of my mum and the night she left..she went to go see a live production of dirty dancing with dave..her horrible boyfriend..I can remember begging her not to go, holding onto her so tightly I thought i would burst i asked to go with her instead but she said I was too young I'll be back in a minute she whispers and this time I believed her so I wished her a good time and she left me on the sofa I remember shouting love you and getting silence as my answer she slammed the door and left...'

She's shivering at the memory. I would too. She's had more than a hard time and the others seem to forget that

'the telly had gone on the blink, there was no food or drink in and the heating was broken I just sat there shivering thinking she'll be back soon, I repeated that over and over to myself jumping at the slightest noise, but then longing for those noises again as the silence became deafening. I opened the door to get some fresh air and the neighbour was there asking about mum I said she'll be back in a minute, anyway it got later and later eventually she came back laughing drunkenly through the door with her boyfriend Dave I had a right go at her told her what I thought of her I remember Dave shouting he'd had enough of my attitude and said he would teach me a lesson so he did...with his fists I remember freezing up as he shouted at me'

She hesitates letting tears flow as she pulls her sleeve up I see a scar

'I shouted and screamed back saying I didn't like how he treats mum and he..'

I put my hand in hers

'Nobody needs to talk about the bad stuff that happened to them' I say

'I know...but you understand Lil. I pushed him over and when he got up he hit me. Hard. he did it again and again until I fell to the floor and he was shouting about how I couldn't fight back now when all of a sudden I heard police sirens, Dave was arrested. I remember thinking that me and my mum could be together happily finally and then somebody swooped in and grabbed me...she didn't run after me like in my head. She hung her head and turned round, I kept protesting to be put down and I think I hurt this social worker quite a lot let's just say I remember screaming for my mum and she walked away...' she says this all to me as if she's waited to for years

I pull her close to me she needed me

'Tracy...Your okay now you're with Cam and you've got me' I say reassuring her as she sits up wiping her tears

'I'm supposed to be looking after you not the other way round' she says

'Its okay to take a break..you taught me that' i say as we fall asleep together in the knowledge that we were safe loved and happy

BACK TO THE PRESENT

They all fall silent before chorusing the same thing

'I had no idea'

'that's the reason,I probably shouldn't have told you but Elektra needed to know' lily says looking at Elektra as they hear Tracy coming back in

'hey tracy' they all say sheepishly

'Hey Guys why the long faces?' She says trying to put a brighter spin on things

'right guys it's almost midnight! you'll all be like zombies tomorrow come on you lot up to bed!' Mike says as the kids get up off the sofa

'happy birthday tracy' they all say some of them giving her a hug

'thanks guys see you all in the morning' Tracy says back