Living with Endometriosis

Managing pain

Like i said before, i have done a laparotomy 9 months ago. During that surgery my right ovary was removed since it was completely damaged by the endometriosis

My chances of getting pregnant are getting slimmer and slimmer with every surgery. I am ok though. I actually don't mind if i will get pregnant or not any longer. I am ok with it, i have made my peace with it. I have a daughter and i am happy. I just want the pain to go away

After 6 months of surgery the doctor suggested i would start fertility treatments to try for ivf but my husband and I declined. Taking all those pills for endo made my hormones go nuts(they still are) and it was making me feel sicker than i was. So we decided no more hormonal medication . He is ok if I don't get pregnant and i am ok too. If it happens it happens otherwise we are good.

No more trying stuff, my body can no longer take it .

Currently i am not taking anything (i chose not to take any more pills, at least  for now) i decided to just detox, exercise, eat as healthy as i can and just take one step at a time.

The pain is till there, during sex, bowel movements, periods, ovulation, just because, Wednesday, next Monday, ...anyway the pain was never gone even without one of my ovaries. But the most important thing is , i am still standing, i am still fighting.

Everyday i go to bed I feel like a winner. I put my daughter in her crib she tells me she loves me (it sounds more like "i ou you" but i know what she is trying to say, so... don't hate) and come and lay next to my husband and i am definitely a winner.

Next day the battle starts again but i am not scared and it might feel lonely but i am sure they are there fighting with me. They are my army, my warriors. They fight for me and i fight for them

When there is a grey day, we know we are together no matter what.

I have learned that things that happen to us may shape us but not necessarily define us. I may have a disease that makes me insane sometimes and physically weak other times but i have a strong mind and i am a fighter

I hate when i have to skip work because i am in pain, it is even more frustrating because people will not understand and it seems like you are slacking. When that happens you have to keep yourself together and do what you got to do for yourself.

Be positive, good things happen to good people. If you believe in yourself no one will have the balls to doubt you. This battle is not with the world (we already have too much in our plate) it is with ourselves.

Don't hate the people around you because they don't understand your pain, just give them some space( and yourself too) and try to understand the fact that they may never understand

Find a goal in your life, a priority, and use it as your instrument, your weapon to fight. Mine is the love for my husband and my daughter