birthright

Part 18

   "You can close your eyes to the things you don't want to see, but you can't close your heart to the things you don't want to feel."

                                                                                                                                                    Johnny Depp                                                                                                                                                                             goodreads                                                  https://www.goodreads.com/quotes/618594-you-can-close-your-eyes-to-the-things-you-don-t 

Maria's POV

Our vacation was good and well deserved, I had done just as Dylan had asked and forgotten about everything that was going on. There were no guns shooting, no one trying to kill us. Everything was quiet for once and relaxing. We all had a wonderful time even Dylan. Seeing Dylan interact with the girls was the highlight of my vacation. Every day we went somewhere new done something different and every night I spent wrapped in his arms. I hated that we had to return home and almost wished that we didn't have too. Our flight seemed to be faster coming then it did the day we left. All the girls slept the whole flight even Jazlynn, she was asleep before we boarded the plane which was good on our part. Dylan kept a close eye on her just in case she woke up though, all we needed was her to freak out on us again.

As we pull up to the Alpha house the smile that I had been wearing fades away. Bridget stands with a big smile on her face on the front steps. Her little baby bump showing in the light blue dress she wears. I don't think that Dylan and I expected to conceive while we were away it being so soon after the loss of the one. So when it didn't happen neither of us said a word about it.

"It's good to be home" I hear Dylan say

I hear as he gets out then watch as he goes to his lover. Swallowing the tears before they start I get out and start getting the girls out. Laura comes to help me, then Dylan after he held Bridget in his arms.

 After getting the girls unpacked and settled into the nursery I head to my room to unpack without a word to Dylan or anyone else.

"Everything alright," Dylan asked from my door 

"I'm fine" I don't turn to him afraid I would burst into tears

"The girls get settled in and all," he asked

"Yeah"

"Good, I'll have Maggie fix our dinner" he turns to leave

"I know she's your lover Dylan but you could be a little more discreet about it"

I feel his eyes on me once more, I look up at him.

He nods "You jealous Maria" 

"It doesn't look right in front of our people" I all but spit at him

"You don't tell me what I can and can't do" he snaps

"I'm your Luna, your wife....you know what just get out of my room," I tell him

"I'm sorry if I hurt you," he says quietly than leaves me

I hated myself right then because I knew he was right I was jealous, jealous that he has kissed her as soon as he came home. Jealous that he would be holding her tonight and not me. I knew it was coming when we got back, she was his lover, they had been together long before I came in the picture. I felt I was the one that was wrong, that I was intruding on their lives.