[COMPLETED] Letters To A Poor Man || Taekook || English

Letter 16-19

Oh really?
So now I'm your friend, huh? And to think, only a few weeks you said I was just another homeless person, worthless and whatnot.
But in all seriousness, I'm glad you think of me that way. It's nice knowing that I have a rich friend.
And it's so nice that someone cares, too. Sometimes I kinda doubt other people. Sure, the staff here cooks for us and makes sure that we have a place to sleep and all, but do they really and truly care about us? Or are they just doing their job?
It wouldn't surprise me though. Some people just don't care at all.
Well, since there's really nothing to talk about, I guess I'll just tell you about what's been going on lately.
Everyone is still shaken up because of Seoyeon. Her friends here, Yuki and Kyungmi, haven't stopped crying since she died. She roomed with them, and they always stayed up late at night sharing secrets and gossiping about celebrities and stuff. But instead of hearing the giggling and whispering, all I hear is wailing and crying. Every. Single. Night. Seriously, I'm surprised I'm able to even wake up in the morning.
The little kids still don't know, though. The staff kept them away from the scene, but they knew that something was up, and you know how curious little kids are. They keep asking me what happened, and I just tell them to drop it. I feel bad for having to snap at them like that, but it's the best for their innocence.
I've been trying to cheer everyone up by playing guitar and singing with Hoseok. Yesterday we sang "Hug Me" by Joonil Jung and they loved it. They smiled and applauded and everything, but their expression still looked pained, still mourning over Seoyeon. I don't blame them, though. What happened to her was pretty terrible.
I don't know why, but I feel so guilty. Maybe because I was the only one who discovered her body and heard her smashing her head in. I know I didn't do anything... but I'm just... disturbed, I guess. I still shudder every time I picture it.
Other than the whole Seoyeon situation, I guess everything's okay around here. Nothing's really going on. The kids are all hyped up for Christmas next month.
They just bounce around the orphanage and check off days on the calendar.
What do you do for Christmas? I'm guessing that your parents host another one of their parties. But you still have the tree and your sisters get gifts, I presume?
I love Christmas, but it would be nice if I got to spend it at a real home, all cozy and warm.
I guess the orphanage will have to do.

Write back,

Jungkook, November 13, 2016

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Hey,
Well, Christmas is still a month and a few days away! I can see why the kids count down the days, though. I used to that myself when I was small. Now it's not really a huge deal.
Like you guessed, my parents do host this huge Christmas party. My sisters invite their friends, my parents their friends and colleagues, I invite my friends and Yuna. I think she'll be back for Christmas. I sure hope she will be. I miss her like crazy, and I already have a gift planned out for her.
The party's on the twenty-fourth, which is also the birthday of my mom, so it's an even bigger celebration. There's a huge tree set up in the living room, where we open the gifts next morning. We don't exactly open the gifts first thing, we usually have a huge Christmas breakfast before, and then we open the gifts. After all the gift opening, the kids usually go outside to play in the snow, if there's any. I'd call Yuna over and we'd spend the day together. Then, after everyone's all pooped out from the day we snuggle up by the fire and sing songs. Well, I sing most of them, but sometimes the rest of my family joins in the chorus.
It's a really nice way to spend Christmas. I think most families do the exact same thing, well maybe without the whole "singing by the fire" thing.
Sorry that you can't exactly spend it that way, but at least you have people to share the Christmas spirit with. A lonely Christmas could possibly be the worst thing ever. I'm sorry that I keep making you promise things, but just please promise me that you won't spend Christmas alone. It's the most horrible feeling in the world.
Oh yeah. I just reminded myself that I'm turning twenty-two. I feel even older.

Bye for now,

Kim Taehyung, November 18, 2016

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Hi,
I promise I won't spend Christmas alone. I have Hobi to spend it with, remember? Haha, like that nickname I came up with? I call him Hobi, he calls me Kookie.
Christmas here is pretty comfy, I guess. The staff takes everyone to some fancy restaurant down the street for a Christmas dinner, and then we go and stare at the huge Christmas tree that the townspeople put up. It's a beautiful sight, especially if there's snow. A white Christmas surely is a marvellous thing.
The orphanage has a fireplace, so the kids usually sit around it while they drink hot cocoa. I'll pull out my guitar and start singing Christmas carols for them. Some will fall asleep by the time I get through my second song. The ladies carry them back to their beds, and sometimes even I have to.
Right, I forgot about the presents. The orphanage does that "Secret Santa" thing. The kids will write down what they want for Christmas on a piece of paper and they're sent off to wherever. People who'll buy what they assigned, and they're shipped to the orphanage, so the kids get what they want, without knowing who gave it to them. The kids don't know who they're receiving it from, so they think it's from Santa, hence "Secret Santa".
I never believed in Santa, so I never really understood the point of "Secret Santa". Kairi told me one day, I think I was eleven or so, that it's "charity, to show that people care."
I don't do that anymore. There's nothing much I want, or could want, anyway.
The sight of happy homeless kids, I think, is enough. They're happy, so I'm happy.

Stay jolly,

Kookie, November 21, 2016

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Hey,
Cool nickname. It's way better than mine. Mine's just Tae, but my friends call me TaeTae.
That sounds like a nice way to spend Christmas. It might not be with family or an actual house to be in, but it still sounds pretty comfy.
And I know about "Secret Santa". I never really understood it either. I mean, why buy something for someone that you don't even know or someone that you're never going to meet? Pointless, am I wrong?
But for charity, I understand. I know all about charity, trust me. It's not my favourite thing in the entire world, but there are people out there who like it. Whatever.
Hey, maybe one day you'll know what it's like to spend Christmas time with family. It might not be blood related family, but people who care about you. Jungkook, you're going to be adopted one day. I hope so, anyway. You deserve a family, people who will give you everything, and definitely could be one hell of a good son.
Jungkook, even I'm curious about your parents and why they gave you up. Why don't you tell Kairi or whoever to try and contact your birth parents and ask why they gave you away? I just think it'll be helpful information, so that once you're adopted, your adoptive parents will know not to make that kind of mistake.
I'm sure it can't be that bad. I mean, parents have to love their children. They're their own flesh and blood, anyway, so they should.
If you don't want to, I totally understand, but I'm just wondering why someone would set you up for adoption. Look how good of a person you grew up to be. They must really be regretting it by now, I'm sure of it.
What if you were adopted on Christmas?
Wouldn't that be the best Christmas gift ever?

Lots of love,

Kim Taehyung, November 30, 2016