[COMPLETED] Letters To A Poor Man || Taekook || English

Letter 31&32

Aw, man,
I'm sorry to hear that! Of course I wouldn't know what it's like to have a girlfriend cheat on me, since I've never had one, but I'm sure it must hurt. And especially with your best friend? Ouch. That hurts even more. Now, of course I wouldn't know what it's like to be in love with someone, but it must hurt a lot to have that person cheat on you. I've been hurt before, Taehyung. In many, many ways. I'm pretty sure that I've felt the pain that you're feeling right now.
Don't worry. Well get through this together, okay?
And hey, you said you thought that she was "the one." Thought. It doesn't mean she actually was. Hm, maybe she's "the one that got away." Or maybe "the one that cheated on me with my best friend."
Oops, sorry. Not helping.
Look, Taehyung, I'm pretty sure you're getting mad at me right now. I'm just trying to lighten up the situation. Positive thinking, you know? I've been doing a lot of that lately, since I need to keep positive thoughts in check for the news about my parents.
You're gonna hate me after this letter. I just know it. That's fine, I guess. Lots of people hate me, so I'm okay with you hating me too.
Like you said, Taehyung, there's going to be lots of heartbreaks. There's going to be lots of girls, lots of exes, and it looks as if Yuna's just another one. There's going to be more, Taehyung. Lots more until you find "the one." And once you do, trust me, you'll know.
I wonder what it's like. You know, to find someone who's "the one." Must be pretty special, you know? I've never actually really questioned my love life up until you sent me your last letter.
It seems as if love's just another bump in the rollercoaster that is life.
Haha, you like that metaphor? I forgot to tell you, Yoongi taught it to me when we were talking in the park. "Just close you eyes and enjoy the rollercoaster that is life," he said. I thought it was pretty cool. He even gave me permission to use it.
He's a cool dude. Keep him close, yeah? I think he'll be able to help you through this. He's probably had a girlfriend before.
Now that I think about it, maybe love is another rollercoaster itself. Life has its up and downs, but so does love. I think they might be two separate rollercoasters, but they're related. Like cousins, or maybe brother and sister. Love is a part of life... maybe mother and son? Daughter? Ack, I'm thinking too much. It's hard trying to be wise, you know.
Well, what I'm trying to say is that life has its up and downs, and so does love. Yuna was just another bump in the rollercoaster that is love. You shouldn't let this ruin you life. I wouldn't want you to be sad. We have enough sadness in this world, let's not add another person to the list.
And also, don't beat yourself up for this. You did nothing. You had absolutely nothing to do with her cheating. It's all her fault. Don't go blaming yourself for this, because I know that people tend to do that. I'm sure you'll meet someone else, someone who won't cheat on you, someone who will love you with all her heart, someone who won't let you go.
You'll have a happy ending, Kim. I just can't say the same for me.

Good luck,

Jungkook, January 6, 2017

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Thanks,
Thank you for the encouraging words, Jungkook. It helps. It's just been lonelier since the party. I told them both to get the fuck out of my life, and they both did so. Now, I'm left with no girlfriend, no best friend, nothing to do.
Well, I have you to write to, of course. I've been talking to Yoongi, too. You're right, he's a cool guy. Very mysterious, if you ask me. I wonder what other secrets he's hiding...
I may have inquired him about his parents. He was actually more than willing to share.
He is wealthy, you got that part right. His parents are both managers for different companies (he didn't say) and are often away from home. However, whenever his father was home, he'd hit him. For no apparent reason. His father would call him useless and stupid and a "poor excuse for a son." Yoongi has another brother, and he's never heard his father call him the same thing.
Those cuts and burns in his arms, though... his father didn't inflict those wounds on him. Yoongi did it to himself.
The insults thrown at him... they made Yoongi really insecure. He told me he's been self-harming for at least 6 years, since he was 17. Attempted suicide three times, ended up in the hospital once. It was tough listening to him.
I asked him why he hasn't killed himself yet. Not that I was trying to be insensitive, I was just curious. He told me that he has a girlfriend, Chaerin, and that he would never give up his life while she was still around. He also told me that he has a rapping career to look forward to... yeah, Jungkook. He's like us. His life revolves around music.
I asked him over to do a duet with me.
We really had no idea what we were doing. I guess we were just trying out what our voices would sound like together. And if I'll be damned, that boy can rap, quite well actually!
I'd love to hear your voice, Jungkook. I'm sure it'll sound great next to ours.
Music has gotten my mind off of Yuna. I'll stay up late at night, listening to songs that encourage me to move on, find another girl and that kind of stuff. She's left a scar in my love life, but I'll find another girl, I'm sure of it. She's just another one. Nothing special.
Eh, I guess I'm just not ready to mingle yet. I could just go to a club, get a girl, bring her home, shag her and whatnot, but that would be so morally wrong. I guess breaking up with Yuna left me in a non-romantic mood.
Ugh, plus just the memory of what was going on in that room... blech. I want to forget it as soon as possible.
Anyway, how's the new guitar working out for you? It's a pretty good one, isn't it? And honestly, I didn't know that Taylor was your favourite, I kind of just guessed. I know it's really good material and has a great sound, but yeah. Glad you like your present.
By the way, how's the search for your parents going? Has the orphanage been able to contact them yet? I'm kind of shaking with anticipation, Jungkook. I really want to know. Like seriously. I want to find out. Now.
But that's just be being inpatient. I'm not a very patient person, but I'm guessing you already knew that about me, since you tend to know everything about everyone.
How are things over there at the orphanage? How's Hoseok liking his keyboard? Did the kids have a good time during the holidays? Oh, sorry if I'm bombarding you with questions. I'm just trying to be positive too, I guess.
I thought you were trying to be positive, Kookie! Saying that you won't have a happy ending isn't very positive if you ask me! Come on, you're going to be adopted! You're going to go great lengths into the world of music! Famous musician, maybe! Oh, what am I saying. "Maybe?" More like definitely.
Keep your head held high, Jungkook. You still have a whole life ahead of you. You're still 19 years young!
Oh... that's right... I'm 22 now...
I should... probably stop writing now. My hand's starting to cramp up...

Love,

Kim Taehyung, January 8, 2017