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Part 6

Sunday morning feels almost like the world isn't perfectly in focus. I don't know... it's like as if when I open my eyes, what I see is all blurry, and hazy. I close my eyes and take a deep breath, it is only my fault, I did this to myself, I should have known better.

Today is going to be a lazy day so I don't even bother getting dressed, I just keep my pajamas on, go into the bathroom, and throw my hair up into a bun.  Jack is still sleeping, I don't wake him because it's not like we have anything to do. I make my way downstairs, and grab a water bottle and make myself a bowl of oatmeal. One of my perks is that I don't have to wait for the water to boil, I stick my finger in the bowl and my oats are done in less than a minute. I take my stuff, and go sit in front of the tv and turn on Friends. I finish my food and quickly do my homework. 

I know I said this is going to be a lazy day but I'm bored now. The house is clean, my homework is done, and Jack can fend for himself. I decide it's best to go wake up my brother, he's the best company I have right now.  This time he's already awake, I knock on the door and go in. He is sitting at his desk drawing something. 

Jack is only 14 but ever since I can remember he has been extremely gifted at art. He drew a portrait of me a few years ago and it is hanging on my wall. I remember the day my mom told me that I was going to have a sibling. I was only three years old, I was so excited, at the time I didn't realize that a sibling was a part of your family, I thought they meant that I was just getting a new friend. 

When Jack was born I was there in the delivery room with my mom and dad, I was only three years old, but I had this realization at that moment that I had to keep him safe. Fourteen years later and the kid has grown at least a foot taller than me, he's gotten stronger and smarter, well, that part is debatable sometimes. He makes me able to see the world from a different perspective, he always looks at the positive side of things, and always finds a solution. 

He sets down his pencil and looks to me, "What do you want?"

 I take a seat on his bed, "I don't want anything, I'm just bored," I nod towards his desk, "What are you drawing?"

 He holds up his paper for me to see, "I don't know, I think it's a planet that I'm trying to draw," he sets the paper down and looks at me again, "I had this dream, I keep having it, and every time I always see this thing."

 I nod my head, "Okay, well when you figure out what it is I want to see it."

He gets out of his chair and sits down next to me on the bed. "Yesterday, did something happen with Peter? You came home and didn't come out of your room except for dinner." 

I turn my head towards him, "Yeah, I'm sorry about that, I didn't mean to be rude, but yeah something did happen." 

"What was it?"

 I sigh, "What always happens with him happened, we were having a good time and then he just left me, right in the middle of the sidewalk."

 A look of confusion crosses his face, "Did he tell you why?"

 "No, he just said that he had to leave." 

He thinks for a moment before he speaks, "There has to be a good reason he just ditched you."

 I scoff, "Yeah well he didn't bother to tell me so I don't care anymore, he can stay away from me."

 "Jai, I know you're pissed at him, but you've known each other ever since I can remember, I don't know exactly what happened with you two but I know that he still cares about you, I mean, the day that the whole Washington thing happened he stopped by and I answered the door, he wanted to know how you were doing and if you were alright if he didn't care about you at least a little bit he wouldn't bother."