CRY

Chapter 7

"Everything behind him was clouded..."

Jungkook's P.O.V

I hurriedly packed my things to leave work after I helped Hoseok clean up.

"Jungkook-ah!"

"Oh, hey Hoseok, what is it?"

"Uhm, ah, I was wondering, who is...Jin? Were you talking to him this morning?"

I frowned.
Why's he asking such weird questions?

"Jin's my best friend, he used to work here and no, I wasn't talking to Jin this morning."

"Oh, I just wanted to know."

"Yea, anyways I gotta go, I'll see you tomorrow!"

I rushed out of the Café to my house.
Taehyung, I'm coming!

People gave me weird looks but I'm used to it by now.

I hurriedly opened my door.

Empty...
My heart sank to the pit of my stomach as my thoughts began to consume me.
All that was left of me in that moment is anger towards myself and sadness.

Why is it always me, am I the idiot?

He wasn't there,
He left me too,
He said he wouldn't leave me!
He lied!

My breathing became laboured and my vision began to blur.
My lungs felt like they were tightening, my head was pounding and my palms were lubricated by sweat.

The last thing I remember was falling to the cold floor.
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I was falling into an endless abyss. Voices crowded me.
Why don't you just die already!
Look, it's pcysho boy!
Weirdo!
Die!
Get some help you stupid [redacted]!
Your parents probably killed themselves because of you!

"Shut up! That's not true!"
My voice was drowned out by their hateful comments.

"Stop! What did I do wrong?!"

You lived!

"Taehyung!"

I jolted awake and looked around me and saw Taehyung looking worried.

"Jungkook! Are you okay?"

I just kept staring at him, wondering if this was all real.

"Jungkook! Jungkook answer me!"

His voice sounded as if it was under water.

"Jungkook! What's wrong?!"

I could hear him, but I couldn't feel him anymore. It was as if I was numb to his touches.

Taehyung wasn't there, that's what I kept hearing.

Is it because my mind always tells me that I'm lonely?
That no one will stay by my side?

I slowly closed my eyes and drifted off again.

Drifting into what?

All I know is that I don't want to be awake anymore.

Alive anymore...

I just wanna die...
I can't do it anymore...

Why am I alive?

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