My Heart Got In The Way

Chapter 19 - Sadness

Scott POV

    I ended the phone call with kira because I couldn't bear to hear Kira's heart breaking knowing that I'm the cause of her heartbreak. But I just couldn't help it when she said I was just a mission to her my anger got the best of me that's why I said those hurtful words to her. God, I just want to go over to her apartment to tell her how sorry I am and how much I love her and  want to make things right between us again but a small voice kept repeating it self over and over in my head

'She doesn't want you'

'She doesn't want you'

Constantly reminding me that I am nothing to kira and  she will never have that special type of love that I have for her and that just breaks my heart  over and over again, shattering any piece of hope left in my heart for the two of  us. Thinking about this makes me want to break down and cry.

I haven't realise I was sitting in my office chair staring into space till my mom came in without knocking and said that I must eat something. I politely decline the food offer and told her I wasn't hungry. She got worry and ask me "what's the matter dear?" I didn't want to burden her with my love problems plus I don't want her to think any horrible things about Kira because I haven't gotten around the chance to tell her that Kira is an assassin even I couldn't believe the fact that my mate was send to New York to assassinate me. So I replied and said " nothing mom, just alpha business"

"Nonsense dear I know when something isn't right and don't tell me that bullshit about alpha business...is it about Kira?...did something happen between the two of you?"

"No mom, just leave it alone alright!" I shouted at her regretting it as soon as I realise who I'm talking to...the woman who gave birth to me "mom I didn't mean to shout at you, its just that...."

"It's alright dear I know you didn't mean it, whatever is troubling you it will work out itself" and like that she was out the door. Feeling bad about what I've just did and what I've said on the phone I started yelling and destroying my office by flinging the chair across the room, throwing every single thing off my desk except a frame with a photo of me and kira kissing in the cabin. She didn't even realise when I  had took the picture we were watching one of her favourite romantic movie series called 'beauty and the beast'. The way her face lights up when Vincent told Catherine he loves her and she told him back. I was compelled by the need to create fireworks between us, so I connected my lips with hers. That night we just cuddle with each other... Together we fell asleep in each other arms feeling content with ourselves. Thinking back on the memory it brought  sadness and heartbreak to my doorstep. I'm still in denial about the fact that our relationship had ended without a warning not that relationship comes with any warning labels or any of that sort. Finally deciding to stop this moping and crying over one chick because its not worthy but deep down it is. She's not just any girl she is my soul mate, my life partner, my Otherhalf, my lifeline, she is my angel that shines that bright light into my heart. She is that type of person who brings joy wherever she goes. She is my kira Johnson and one day when I make up for all the sorrow, pain and hurt I've given her I will make her Mrs kira McCall and I promise her that when that day comes she'll be happy. Leaving the office to go take a  shower and get something to eat. I went to the pack meeting to discuss about the rouges lurking in my territory. After two hours of making and finalising how to handle the situation, I decided to take a stroll in the city of  New York.

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On my walk to clear my head I ended up at the diner kira works and look across the street where she lives longing to hold her in my arms and tell her everything will be okay but I decided against it and figure it would be best if the two of us stay away from each other to blow off some steam. So I just walk away hoping that when the time comes she will forgive me.

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Weeks turned into months and I haven't seen kira in a while. I am itching to go to her apartment to steal a kiss from the person who makes living worthy so that one day I would wake up to that beautiful smile that lights up my dark stone cold heart.

I am currently sitting in my office getting some work done after two months of depression. To say its two months now since I've seen her I thought the pain would have subsided but I couldn't have been more wrong.

I miss her so much. I crave her touch, her kiss, everything about her. Sitting thinking about her got me arose, my middle member erected poking my pants to handle my situation I had a very very cold shower. I've been having a lot of those these days. From Kira and I break up I haven't been with anyone sexually. I've been keeping to myself and anybody who cross me I snap at them. I remember one time when Jasmine, my sister told me that dinner was ready and I should come down and eat I snap at her and told her to go f herself and leave me alone she run out of my office crying I didn't even feel any remorse for her sadness I just hissed my teeth and get back to work after that day she's been holding a grudge against me. I couldn't even get a proper rest because I'm so depress that eating and sleeping doesn't look so appealing to me but that's life right. I mean I'll do any thing to have her again.

To have kira again.
I messed up real bad.

A/n

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