I always thought that I'm better off being alone than surrounded with fake friends and toxic people. When deep down inside, I was so scared. Terrified of being left alone. Yet I can't help but felt used to being alone.
I told people that I'm fine, I'm not bothered by it. Well I'm far from fine. I can't be in crowded place. I don't know how to approach people and yet they said I'm cold. I accept it. It is one of my flaws.
It is a new thing to me. To be alone to do things. Even simple things such as buying my own food. I'm not used to it but I'm trying to get a grip and just get it over with. Because you will be alone at the end so let's start now.
I am so terrified of all of these. It is so new to me and I really hate changes. For me, changes are bad. But at the same time, it is good. I can't wrap my mind through it.
I'm trying to be the bigger person but I'm not strong enough. Just give me some time to cope. I don't hate anyone, I just hate the situation that put us through it. Please understand.
I wish someone can rewind the time and stop it at my happiest moment.
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The Colour Of My Heart
Random[HIGHEST RANKING: #1 AWAKE] The story is just a bunch of words that I thought at night when I can't sleep so it might get boring ⚠ ; Have you ever laid awake and thought about everything that happened to you and wished that it could be changed someh...
