I guess I should finish the list of people I have to thank for so far with one more person, myself.
It seems big headed, thanking myself but I have a lot of things to be thankful for that I gave myself.
I'd like to start by thanking myself for being the person I am, not changing just because I'm laughed at or called weird.
Sure, I'm an awful person but if that's the person that I am then I'm glad I didn't change for anyone else.
I'd like to also thank myself for not following others, not being part of the popular crowd. Standing out is always something I've done, and frankly it's part of who I am. I wouldn't change it for the world.
Next, I'd thank myself for surrounding myself with these people. The people around me are honestly everything I have, I've forgotten what it's like without them. I could've chose others, but I chose the "unpopular" ones with the golden hearts and hidden dreams.
Of course I'd like to thank myself for all the emotions I feel. I feel broken, happy, on top of the world and like I'm crashing down at the same time. Without these conflicting emotions I constantly feel I wouldn't be me, I wouldn't have the feisty spark or the helpless and desperate pleas without them.
Another thing I'd thank myself for, carrying on.
I went through a dark time in my life a while ago, and I thought so badly of ending it all. But I'm here, I carried on and suddenly my life is looking up. I thought it would never feel better, that I'd be stuck in this eternal poison; life.
Of course I'm still extremely upset and emotional, I still want to go. But the purpose of carrying on is to see what the future holds and I'm glad I'm doing just that.
For working hard.
When I grow older I shall move onto doing great things If I keep giving my all into everything.
I've always said I'm a failure, which I may be but if I'm working to be the best person I am then I can't fail, Can I?
Thank you, Ellie.
For everything you've achieved and everything you shall achieve.
