This year, I have lost so much. From friends I have loved for years, my soulmates and now face losing a beloved family member. Right now, I'm sitting alone crying hoping that there is something out there for me, wherever and whenever I can reach it, I'm just hoping that I can find a purpose in my life before my time is up.
Humans don't get long on this Earth, A concept we all know. I'll be fucking damned if I ever stop believing that my life will get better, and I wish that I hadn't wasted so much time already. I'd like to thank every single person in my life; past, present or the people who will be in this future I'm creating everyday, simply for the experiences I have been given.
When I think of big future events: a family, weddings, watching my friends succeed, falling in love for the last time and eventually leaving the world, I cry. There is so many changes in my life and It kills me inside that people I once pictured in that are no longer able to be.
I suppose the point of this is to vent my feelings, but the truth is that I'm filled with such binding handcuffs of my brain's own self destruction that there seems to be no way out.
If anyone ever feels this way, I'm here. You don't have to go through anything alone like I did if you don't want to, and if the entire world seems to be against you? Join me and we can avenge our lives together by becoming the best version of ourselves every single day we stay here.
