I Wish (Zayn Malik Fan Fiction)

Author's Note: New Beginnings

Hey.

It's been a while, hasn't it? A year, in fact. Seems like such a short time ago, at least to me.

I would say I'm sorry for not keeping up this little story I had going on, but I've already apologized so many times it's starting to lose its meaning. So instead of words, I'm going to give you actions.

I left you on a cliffhanger back there, and I'd continue to write if only to save you the worry and anxiety. (Though to think you'd get anxious because of a story as pathetically written as this one is laughable, I'll admit it)

The reason I discontinued after that previous part was less out of laziness and more out of the fact that I had no idea what was coming next myself. This whole story was just my winging it and I was swooped along into this project as wind scatters fallen leaves over the sidewalk. There was no intent other than to have a go at the concept of writing something for others to read. And look where that got me - I'm giving out the vibes of an undetermined, aimless idiot who has no idea what she has gotten herself into. And I really must apologize for that.

But as I said, I'm going to show some actions this time around. I'm not going to tolerate wallowing in my own world of procrastination, and I'm going to try to start this up again. Well, not necessarily this story - more like writing in general. Whether it's one shots or an entirely new story, I'm going to try and do it again.

Once upon a time, I cherished being able to escape into my own made-up world, being able to become someone else completely different from myself. I've lost my original intention since then, and I'll stop at nothing to get back my little fairy tale.

And I have an announcement to make.

I'm going to start another story again, one where the idea is something I'm passionate about. Now, I know that I've begun stories in the past, only to drop and abandon them later on, but I have a feeling that this one's going to be different. I've read a shit ton of books this past year and I've gained some new knowledge of writing a good story that I didn't have access to before. And I'm going to utilize my newly acquired writing "skill" in my new story, Hidden.

Hidden is going to be a Harry Styles fan fiction because Haz suits the role a tad bit more than any of the other boys. Oh, who am I kidding, Harold is the PERFECT guy for the part. You'll see why later on, if you choose to delve into this new project.

Right now I'm debating whether or not to put the blurb here. Ah, fuck it. Here ya go.

She is broken. She has done things in her past that she’s not proud of, things she’d do anything in her power to change. To change back the way they used to be.

He is damaged. Afraid, bewildered and uncertain, he has to run away from the ones he loved, those who call him a monster, in search of a place where he can begin again.

Both of them are wrecked, their emotions beaten and battered beyond recognition. Both need something, anything, that could somehow magically make everything better. And both have secrets to hide, but that’s all the secrets are – hidden. Just because you can’t see them doesn’t mean that they don’t exist.

But of course, you can’t hide something forever. 

When the consequences of their mistakes come crashing down on them, they search desperately for someplace where they can feel safe – and they find that in the arms of one another. But in order to fight the demons of their past, both of them must re-learn how to trust, how to find happiness… and more importantly, how to love again.

Intrigued? At least just a little bit? I'm crossing my fingers that you're even the slightest bit interested. Because I really need a confidence boost in order to write/finish this new story. Thank you for your potential support. (;

The blurb needs some editing, 'cause it was originally one of my many incompleted story ideas and it was the lucky chosen one to be developed on. It all sounds cheesy as fuck right now but I'm going to work on making it more alluring and welcoming than it currently is. Wish me luck.

This story, I Wish, is going to be put back for a while. I'm not sure whether or not to just end it here and do a Part 2 later on. I'm going to keep pondering over that decision for the time being.

Ah. This has been longer than expected. Anyway, I hope you can understand my situation, and if not, at least show me some mercy. I'd been an ignorant little shit back then, but I've matured quite a bit now. I hope I can make up for it in Hidden.

Thanks for your time in reading this whole rambling. Sometimes I just gotta let it all out, you know? (: Have a great day, now.

xx Jing