Flying Imagination - Random Moments

Selflove

"... Close your eyes and take Deep breaths. While inhaling, inhale the light. While exhaling, let go of the tension, your problems and your worries ..."

In and out. In and out. Just relaxing. Just breathing. Relaxed, quiet, peaceful.

"Concentrate on yourself, feel your body, your emotions. You know your personality, your way of being. Feel, how you are, your deepest secrets, the things you like about yourself and those you dislike, those you hide from yourself and those you want to change. Everything that is you."

My breath got caught for a second. Oh my, I am so much. I am so much more than I even know. And it rolls all over me. My breath got stuck for a moment. I took a very deep one, but I still felt it all coming up.

"Feel your whole being. Feel your soul that knows you, even the things you hide from your conscience. It knows you thoroughly and knowing you, it loves you deeply."

A tear dropped from my closed eyes. It loves me. It loves me with everything, unconditionally and without judging. Something built up in me, rushed through my heart, made my body grow bigger holding my breath and got stuck in my throat, unable to leave. Like always. But who cares? Why not? It is only me and my soul that loves me. I breathed in sharply. A picture popped up in my mind. A scared me, hugging my knees. I turned my head and looked at me. I saw my watery eyes, full of pain and vulnerability.

"Let its love nourish your own love in your heart, the manifestation of your whole being, be proud of yourself. Let your soul help you accept every and each part of yourself, let it help you understand yourself, love yourself, admire who you truly are."

How can you say something so beautiful? How can you tell me that? How can I be loved? I am only this frightened person. And I thought before, I get along with myself quite well. Another rush got stuck in my throat. But this time I let it through. And a second one built up. How can it be so contradictory what you tell me to what I feel? A tear ran down my cheek. How can such kind words make me feel so bad?

"Let your soul teach you to love you, to be everything you are."

Can you do that, soul? A long, deep breath. Can you teach me?

"Feel the love in your heart vibrate through your whole being."