In Love With My Bully(Wattys 2017)

Chapter 27-learning to let go

This chapter is really meaningful to me I feel like it could also help other people
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Mia pov

It's never gonna be easy letting someone go I think we all know that no matter if it's death or a friendship or relationship or anything it's so hard learning to let go I feel like the world challenges you test you on how your gonna react or what your gonna do to move on with life the thing I hate the most is when people say "oh it's gonna be alright","time heals all wounds","it's a day by day process" like it's just some exam you took and failed and you'll get over in a couple of days god people suck do you feel the pain in your you like your heart stop beating like your brain stop functioning like all your body organs have shut down and you feel just as lifeless I think holding all that emotion in is what drive people to the point of insanity ask yourself what drives people to the brink of going insane what would drive you insane they say the mind is most dangerous when it's alone so people so surround themselves to not be alone. I can't let her go I refuse I don't care how selfish I sound I want her by my side forever but forever is very long time which what I don't have everything has to be perfect.

Mia honey can you make me some biscuits with honey in them please.kelly yelled from the living room I chuckled and shook my head

Yes sweetheart I will. I yelled I grabbed the skillet and I went the refrigerator and grabbed the biscuit I i grabbed the honey and smothered it on the bread and put it in the oven. I got up and went to put the stuff away when I felt hands sneaking around my waist I smiled and slowly turned around all I seen was her smiling with that beautiful scarf on her head

What you wanna do today. I asked her she smiled and shook her head

Nothing at all I just wanna cuddle and watch movies all day.she said I smiled and kissed her head and then I heard the ding I turned and got the biscuits out and I slowly put them in a glass bowl and gave it to her

Thank you my kind sir.she giggled

Your welcome madam. I laughed she turned around and went to walk but drop the bowl and fell everything left my mind and I ran to catch her before she could fully hit the floor.

I'm alright I'm alright Mia I promise.she whispered I picked her up and sat her on the couch and put the blanket over her

Take a nap okay I'll be right here. I said

Can you go see how many biscuits I have that didn't drop.she smiled I chuckled and get up and go in the kitchen I grab the ones that didn't hit the floor and put them in another bowl this time plastic and gave her the bowl I went back in the kitchen and swept some of the stuff on the floor and threw it away I came back to find her peacefully sleeping I cut off the tv and went to go take a shower when the doorbell rings I go get Kelly and take her upstairs into my room I tuck her in and jog downstairs to the door I opened it to see my bestfriend

Wassup.she said dapping me up I chuckled and dapped her up as she walked inside

Hey wassup. I smiled

Where's kelly.she asked

She's upstairs sleeping. I said

Oh okay so wassup what you wanted to talk about.she asked as we plop down on the couch

I proposed to kelly and-

You did what.she screamed I hit her in the arm shushing her

I proposed and before she goes I wanna marry her Victoria please help me with that. I pleaded giving her my puppy dog eyes

Why would I say no to something like this.she asked laughing at me I chuckled and was cut off by the sound of feet running me and Victoria looked at each other and ran upstairs I ran in my room and into the bathroom to find it locked I heard her coughing up her guts

Kelly sweetheart please open the door. I said

No I don't want you to see me.she coughed up as she continued to throw up

Hey jelly bean how is it going.victoria asked

Hey Victoria uhm wassup.kelly said

Nothing much dealing with your bestfriend mood swings.victoria chuckled

Vic I need to talk to you in private please.kelly whispered

Okay sweetie you have to open the door first.victoria chuckled

No ima come out there just tell Mia to go please.kelly said Victoria turned and looked at me with those eyes I crossed my arms and shook my head we were standing there having a eye argument. I continued to shake my head and Victoria was giving me those pleading eyes

Is she gone yet.kelly asked

Yep.victoria lied and then tried pushing me out then she whispered "look I will tell you okay just please give her space" I nodded and walked out going downstairs and getting the wine out the refrigerator and grabbing a glass and pouring it in and just waiting

~victoria~

I finally got Mia to walk out the room and locked it and kelly came out the bathroom with her grey draggy pants and grey tank with a brown cover jacket and she was wearing a scarf on her head she slowly came out she had hair in her hands I went over and grabbed it and slowly put it in the bag we sat down on the bed

I know she has already told you about our engagement-

Yes and I'm so happy for you-

I don't wanna marry her victoria.kelly said my smile slowly started to fade away

Why not. I asked

Victoria I can't marry her and just leave her like this I couldn't rest and I wouldn't be happy.she sighed

So you would rather her live her life knowing that she couldn't marry the love of her life. I said

She has no choice but to move on vic.she said looking at me and rolling her eyes

Yea but you can never take away the wedding day and that day will forever last to her. I said getting ready eyed

God victoria I can't hurt her.kelly cried

You will be hurting her by not marrying her I know you love that girl with all your heart and ik deep down if you didn't have this disease you would marry her in a heartbeat she doesn't wanna marry you because of your sickness she's marrying you because she loves you kelly god she loves you. I cried as I unlock the door I opened it and look back

She loves you. I whisper and walk out I jog downstairs and Mia comes around with her face worried face on I gave her a small smile and put my hand in my back pockets and left I couldn't stay I couldn't see the look on Mia's face as kelly told her the heartbreaking words.

Sorry guys I'm back I'm sorry just a lot