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Final Chapter: Jin Can't Dance

"Noona...breathe...you need to breathe or you'll have another panic attack."

"I...c-cant...ca-lm...doownn..."

"Close your eyes and breathe with me...come on."

Yoongi held my hands tightly squishing them between our bodies. With my pregnancy my panic attacks lessened greatly...but when they DID come, they came full force. We had learned that if I just breathe and be close with someone to breathe with...they would go away pretty quickly. Not much triggers them anymore...and Taemin and Jaxon have gotten along for a while and now that Taemin is bigger, he helps with Jaxon if and when he can, being infatuated with the boy.

Today though...I know EXACTLY why the hyperventilation came when it did.

Today is my wedding day.

Don't get me wrong...I want today to happen. But with work people, and friends of friends of friends giving plus ones....EVERYONE wanted to come.

We could afford a big wedding...honestly...once I knew what my feelings for Jin were...I allowed myself to dream of a wedding. One where the DJ plays all those group dances like the Love Shack, The Cupid Shuffle, The Cha Cha Slide...but that was the reception...after the important part.

"Noona...please...come on, today is a happy day...breathe." Yoongi encouraged.

I did as he asked...taking deep breathes in and out trying to clear my mind. But I couldn't...all I could think about is this is final...this is going to be the rest of my life and I couldn't be more happy. That's why my panic attack came...the reality of the day finally hit me and I wasn't prepared for the overwhelming feelings of joy thinking about marrying the father of my child.

My child.

My. Child.

I never thought I would have a family. I thought I'd be the slutty Noona that Tae and Yoongi's boy would learn how to swear and play cards from. But no.

I have a family. Jin, Tae, Yoongi and our little boys. I couldn't help but start to smile through my panic attack and Yoongi smiled at me.

"You're happy?" He teased. "Is this a nervous, happy panic?"

I nodded and thankfully with the slight giggle my breathing started to slowly regulate. It took only another minute or two to get everything back to normal. And I quickly wrapped my arms around Yoongi.

"Thank you." I breathed.

"Anytime, Noona." He pulled back and cupped my face. "I love you, you know that?"

"I know. I'm the female version of Tae." I giggled.

He scrunched up his nose. "That you are...just with better legs." He said looking down even though my legs were covered.

I playfully hit him in the shoulder and we both laughed. "Just don't let that slip to Taehyung...he's rather fond of his legs."

Yoongi smiled and kissed me flush on my cheek. "Don't tell Jin that you're the female version of Tae...he might not fuck you anymore if he knew that."

We both laughed at that and then we heard the music play queuing us to be ready.  Yoongi was to walk me down the isle. My parents were out of my life a long time ago, and as Tae as MY best man...I could think of no one better to give me away. We made our way to the front hall and when the blue double doors opened my eyes zeroed in on Jin. He looked....SO Handsome. He was wearing a dark charcoal gray tuxedo with hot pink lining, a hot pink bow tie, and hot pink cufflinks. I watched him in slow motion as he turned to me. His smile faltered a little but not in disappointment...more of shock. I started to take a few steps with Yoongi the music now shrouded with silence as I couldn't take my eyes off of my almost husband. I watched him as his eyes started from the bottom of my dress and work their way up, taking in every detail of the dress that Jimin helped me pick out.

Just before I made it to him  his eyes locked with mine, and his beautiful smile plastered his face and I saw his eyes were a little glossy. Once I made it to him Yoongi took my hand and gave it to Jin stepping to sit next to Jimin, Jungkook, and Hoseok. We stared at each other while the ceremony, though short, started. Then it was time for the vows...me going first.

"Jin...Oppa...you gave me a gift that I don't know if you realize you gave me. Before you...I didn't believe in love. Despite Taehyung's numerous attempts to convince me what he felt for his boyfriend was love...I just didn't buy it. All the men that I knew, besides the two of them, were selfish and only looked for one thing out of me. So I gave it to them...and I don't care that all of these people know that. I was beginning to think that I COULDN'T be loved. I was unlovable. And then you walked into my life and changed....everything. You showed me what happiness was, you showed me what inner peace was...you showed me what love was. You showed me that love was real. And the most real thing I can tell you today and here is that I love you more than anyone...second to Taemin." Everyone laughed, including Jin. "But as my partner...as my husband...you are the reason I have the light of my life...it was you who gave me something I never thought I could ever have. Happiness. So thank you. And I promise...I will spend the rest of my life taking care of you and Taemin and doing my best to return that happiness."

There was a small clap that came from Jimin, and I saw Namjoon look at him with a bright smile from behind Jin. And as it was his turn he whispered my name. "You have no idea the change you made in my life. When I first laid eyes on you...I didn't know it at the time but I loved you. As cheesy as that sounds, it was love at first sight. By some grace above you turned out to be my baby brother's best friend. The best friend that he spoke so highly of...the one he said had a good heart...a beautiful face...and an even more beautiful soul. I knew I had to meet you, and as destiny would have it...I met you before Tae could introduce us. I think everyone here also needs to know that you were the woman that made me feel like a man. You gave me purpouse and made me feel important. Happiness is when you feel your best around the person you love most...and that is you. You made me a better man...you took away my insecurities...my fears...and you gave me happiness. I will spend the rest of my life thanking you. Thanking you for my pride...thanking you for your smile...and thanking you for my son. You gave me that gift as well. The gift of family...and without you, I still wouldn't know what it would be like to look at someone and know the universe is in order. Our story was meant to happen...our struggles were meant to happen...you and I, were destined to be together. I love you."

Tears were staining my face. My make-up was starting to run...and in the corner of my eye I watched as Jimin took out a few make up items undoubtedly getting ready to fix mine for me. Just then, Tae gave me a ring, and Namjoon, as Jin's best man, gave him one too. It was in a fog that we placed those rings on each other and my breath was taken from me as Jin's lips found mine. It was soft...it was passionate...it was perfect.

We were sitting at the table when the MC announced Jin and I's frist dance. I took his hand and pulled him to the dance floor but before the music started he looked like he was going to be sick.

"Oppa...are you alright?"

He gave me a worried look before he spoke. "I um...I can't dance. I tried...I had Jimin try to teach me...b-but I..."

I placed my finger on his lips. "Oppa...just relax and do what feels natural."

The music started and he held me in his arms. It was a slow song...one Jimin and Namjoon made for us. And it was...the best...we swayed back and forth in our own world enjoying the heat between our bodies. Too soon the song stopped and everyone applauded for us. Right after the DJ started playing the Cupid Shuffle, per my request, and I dragged Jin to stay on the dancefloor. I tried to teach him...I tried to show him how to move his feet...by stepping...but all hope was lost.

Once the song was over. "I CANT DANCE." He expressed exasperated and out of breath.

I couldn't hide my giggle. "We will work on it Oppa."

We sat at a table late into the night with his brothers, Yoongi, Jungkook and Hoseok. I sat on his lap and laughed while talking to Tae, and he held on to my waist as he turned the other way talking with Jungkook. It was in that moment I knew everything was good. Everything was how it was supposed to be, and I wouldn't change a damn thing.