Willow has been through a lot. From losing the man who was suppose to be the love of her life, to having a miscarriage, to losing the man she thought opened her heart up again. While finding herself and trying to be the best mother she can be, her...
Seeing Willow walk in with the girls, just warmed me up inside. It felt good to see how my family would actually look. It makes me really want to be the best I can be for them.
As soon as church is over, Ari and Lexa runs over to me runs over to me and Low just smiles.
"Daddy!"
"Hey babygirl."
"Hey Uncle G. Since Ari is my sister now does that make you my daddy too."
Willow and I look at each other and she speaks before I can comment.
"Babygirl you have a father and his name is Alex but G will always be apart of your life and maybe one day he might be your other father. So you are a very lucky girl. You have two men who love you unconditionally."
Hearing Low say those words makes me love her even more.
"Right Lexa. One day your mom and I will make everything much better. We love each other very much."
"So you werent going to tell me that, that bastard has been contacting you huh!?"
"Mama please do not freaking start!"
"Girl do not try me. I know we are still building our relationship but we have gotten close. We talk about everything cheeky(Willow's nickname her mom gave her from birth). Why wouldn't you tell me?"
"Do you really want to go there mom? Do you really want to?"
"Yes the hell I do!"
"So you want to talk about secrets? You're the woman who kept the damn secret from me! I didn't even know I had a father! You and Granny kept that from me! DO you know what it's like? I grew up without you! I grew up without him! Feeling empty inside all of the time! So you know what i did? I ate! but it did nothing for me! Growing up being teased all of the time and the funny thing was, I wasnt even the biggest girl in the school. All because of you. People found out who my mother was and they picked on me. Oh why arent you pretty like her? No one loves you not even her! Mama you let me think no one loved me! Granny tried the her best to be a mother to me but it wasnt the same! You don't get to tell me who I can and can't meet mama. You don't! If i can forgive you for everything. I can forgive him. It's not like it was his freaking fault. He had to stay away mama. You never even gave him a chance to explain why. He wanted to better himself for us. But because you couldnt have him. You didn't want me. Why mama?"
I broke down crying and I couldnt control myself. My legs became weak and i fell to the floor with tears streaming down my face.
Standing there looking down on me, my mom sits on the floor and hugs me. She hugs me like she never have before. She cradled me in her arms and just held me without saying a word.
"Why didn't you want me mama? What was wrong with me?"
She held me tighter and began to cry.
"Cheeky, I love you with all of my heart and you were so perfect. I remember when I first held you in my arms, you looked at me like I was the most beautiful person that you ever saw. The love you had in your eyes. I loved you but all I could see was your father. He left me with no explanation but he tried to reach out but i did not want him to talk to me or come near you. So I told mama that I was going to Atlanta to go back to school for fashion and design. I ended up doing a few videos and loved the attention and the lights. I became obsessed with the limelight and I needed more. I kept sending money home but I knew that it wasnt the life to bring child into. So I would come and stay and leave back out because I wanted to pursue my dreams and I wanted you to be proud to say that I was your mother. I am sorry for only thinking about myself. I am sorry babygirl. But you I didn't deserve you. Even after I came back and tried to use you for my show. You still accepted me with open arms. I love you so much cheeky and im sorry."
My mom held me for what seemed like forever until Jen called to remind me about the meeting with my father.
"So you still havent found anything to wear cheeky?"
"No ma'am. I cam just feeling so overwhelmed."
She starts going through my closet and pulls out an entire outfit.
"Try this babygirl. This is beautiful."
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"Oooo mama! I likeee!"
We both laugh and I get dressed.
"What are you going to do to your hair?"
"I'm thinking wet and diffuse it."
"Yes!"
I finish up my hair and I look at my mom.
"Thank you mama. I love you."
She smiles and hugs me.
"I love you too Cheeky."
I head out of the door and arrive at Prive'.
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I walk into the restaurant.
"Hello! Welcome to Prive'. May I have your reservation please?"
"Hello and yes. I have a reservation for two under the name Willow Brown."
"Yes your guest is waiting on you. Right this way."
I don't know why I became so nervous but i began pulling my skirt down and my top.
"Hello Willow."
He hugs me tightly and it feels warm. I never had that before.
"Hey Dad."
He freezes and smiles at me.
"Dad? I actually love the way that sounds huh?"
We laugh.
"I talked to mom today. She even helped me pick out this outfit. I was so nervous about meeting you again, my nerves just got the best of me."
"Babygirl, you have your mother's beauty. You could wear sweats and be the most gorgeous woman int he world."
We talk for what seems like hours and I agree to accompany him to the park. He says he wants to show me something.
