A Fresh Start - Glee fan fiction (RYDER LYNN/OC) *ON HIATUS*

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Megan and Ryder were walking down the hallway almost like a couple. Most of the people in school even thought they were dating, even some of the teachers. They go to there lockers across from each other and keep there conversation going.

"So, do you want to get something to eat later?" Ryder asks.

"Yeah, like Subway after school or something" Megan answers and Ryder walks over to her side.

"No, I mean like a real date." He says. Megan looks at him and doesn't know what to say.

"I don't know, Ryder" she says pulling out some sheet music from her locker. "I don't even know if I want a relationship or even a fling."

"I don't want this to be a one night thing, Megan. I care about you" He says.

"I know, it's me okay. I don't feel comfortable opening up to someone so soon." She says

"It's been a month since school started back and you don't feel comfortable?" He asks confusingly.

"It's just, I have a lot of history about my emotions. I keep building up walls" she says as she closes her locker.

"You know what it is? You're scared that history is going to repeat itself, and that if we don't end up sleeping together we won't have a future at all" He says with frustration.

"Ryder, it's not that at all-"

"You know what, forget about it" He says and walks away. Megan watches him as he walks away. She turns around and starts to walk to her next class.

Megan:

I know that I have issues, I face them, I swear

Think I overcome then but turn, they're still there

Wish that I was different , I'd like to let go

But when I try to change there's my past saying no

Megan ends ups following Ryder down to the hall.

Maybe it's all 'cuz of Dad, his new kids his new wife

Or why not just blame Mom, who's been nuts my whole life

When you've felt so alone since you're moment of birth

And you've struggled to find your own true sense of worth

When it seems there is no one across this whole earth

To depend upon, you carry on-just like you always do

Cuz it's safer to rely on you- oh it's safer to rely on you

Megan is sitting behind Ryder in class.

Seen a million movies all selling true love

Fantasies I'm not sure that I'm worthy of

Caution to the wind, my heart's been on display

Still the end result is it's not gone my way

Megan is walking down the hall again into the auditorium.

So when I date some new guy who's a deadbeat or jerk

At least I'm not so crushed when it all doesn't work

When you once unafraid wore your heart on your sleeve

And the ones that you love chose to just turn and leave

She walks up the steps to the stage.