wanderlust.

drown

god i'm so so sick of needing and

needing and

needing and

wishing and hoping

and

praying and expecting and

building bridges just to watch them burn

and

climbing mountains

just

so I can be pushed off the summit

and

trying to swim on the surface

but

all the life in the ocean is pulling me down

I'm no longer

On the surface but

perhaps;

The bottom is more beautiful

So

I let myself drown.