For some reason, tonight I'm really just not in the party mood. The car ride was awkward and quiet. I wanted to talk to Nash but he seemed to be avoiding me and I was more confused than ever. The only person who seemed to be in a good mood was Cameron, as always. His smiled did make me feel a little bit happier, but I was still angry at him.
The party is massive. Teenagers are already spread across the front lawn and down the street as we pull up. The guys all look excited to be at a party.
"This looks awesome" Matthew says in the front seat. I'm not so excited though, as everyone girl in the school will be focused on the guys and none will have time to talk to me and Kayla and David didn't seem like they were going to be partying with me. So I was out of luck and would probably be having a miserable night. The house is massive and the music is pounding and Nash, matthew, and carter are lost in the crowd in front. Girls already have their attention on the boys. It's weird because I'd only been to David's house a few times and the place looked unfamiliar to me when compacted with hundreds of teenagers. I wonder and speak to a few people and pretend like I'm having fun when I'm obviously not. A hand pulls my arm and turns me around
"Stella?" David's face is contorted with anger and confusion. I feel bad and at a loss for words just staring at him dumbly.
"Hey, look I'm so sorry about the way I've been acting lately"
He doesn't look at all satisfied with my response and I felt guilt in the pit of my stomach.
"Stella, you can't just do that to me. Get wasted at a party, whisper someone's else's name with making out with me, leave me Hanging with no response or explanation, and then show up here with a bunch of guys. It's not fair" his voice rises and catches the attention of people around us. I can't talk if it's the drinking that's got him all worked up because someone are just angry when they're drunk, it's weird but hey that's not me.
"I know. It's wrong and I don't know what to say. I'm sorry I'm just really confused right now" I lean my face against the palm of my hand and feel my cheeks starting to turn red as bystanders stare at me.
"Well do you have any sort of explanation as to why you're confused?" All I could focus on was how his face turned an odd shade of purply, red when he yelled. I had an urged to laugh out loud but contained myself.
"I don't know what my feelings for you are" I say bluntly no longer feeling scared of what he was going to say. I felt bad for saying my words so frankly, but I'd finally admitted the truth and that was that.
He looks at me puzzled and I don't give him a chance to respond I just walk away. People part and move to the side as I walk down the aisle of people. I felt confident and I didn't care what people thought. I wander through more familiar faces and find the crowd finally thinning out. I'm not sure where to go so I find myself on the back patio. It's almost empty besides a few couples in the dark doing what I couldn't see and didn't want to see. I lean my elbows on the railing and put my hands on my face while leaning forward. I sigh out loud feeling depressed for an unknown reason.
I hear footsteps approaching me and come stand right next to me. I look up confused to find myself standing right next to Matthew Espinosa.
"Wow, it's a lot quieter out here" he leaps up onto the railing and sits next to where I'm standing.
"Well the party is inside" I say
"Why are you so sad?" He asks so innocently it's cute.
"I don't know. That's been my answer for pretty much everything lately. Just have a lot on my mind right now" I look up to see him staring down out me. His expression is so serious as if listening to every word that's coming out of my mouth.
"Clear your mind then"
"It doesn't feel that easy" I reply
"You need to stop thinking about how you're feeling. Just don't feel. Let it all go and have a good time for right now"
"I don't know how to have a good time" I answer back soundly so much younger than I really am. He smiles as a sweet smile at me.
He offers me a hand,
"C'mon I can show you how" I sigh and roll my eyes playfully. I give in because he was still staring at me with such hopeful eyes. He grabs my hand and leads me inside. He places a cup firmly in my hands. The beer tastes sour but I drink the whole cup anyways. We don't get completely drunk, but it's enough to help me feel less. I'm feeling happier already. Were in the center of the large crowd in the room. The music is pounding and everyone dances in-sync almost. I'm having fun and just forgetting completely of my surroundings. The alcohol gives me a giddy happiness and Matt seemed to be feeling the same. In a few moments the party is stalled and an odd feelings goes through the people and music is cut off. Panic is immediately set in as we hear loud voices on speakers. I turn around feeling confused as ever and look at Matt. His eyes show he must know what's going on. He grabs my hand once again and we are pushing through the crowd and many others are. We race to the back door and we are tearing through the deck and backyard. We are both laughing out loud dumbly as we stumble on various things in the backyard. I'm laughing as we push through the garden gate and into the empty back street. We run faster and pass up many neighbors giving us displeased looks. We collapse on the ground laughing. I'm panting and look up to see the party as it's shut down.
"This is crazy" I pant and lay back down in the grass.
"I know. It's a really good thing we made it out when we did or else we might've not made it out at all"
We laugh again and find a way to contact the others. The luckily have made it out. I lay there as we wait for our ride to arrive. I'm feeling suddenly happy. I can't tell if it's the drinks or the adrenaline from our escape, but I'm feeling as if my life is very different from how it was just a few days ago. I'd changed so much from the guy I had been three years ago. I decided I liked this Stella much more. I was done with David and tired of feeling confused. I had feelings for Nash and that was definite but I also confirmed that I did, indeed share strong feelings for Cameron. That was that.
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