baby // spam

PLEASE READ.

i'm so happy that eli is okay. cherrysvlt i love you. (even tho i don't think you really know me that well hahah). i adore you and i'm so happy you're okay.

i know there's been a lot of stuff going around today, and i'm not gonna talk about that. it's not my business. i'm not involved in any of it. but i will say this..

please stop fussing at people for leaving.

there have been many times i've considered leaving, and i only did it once.

i didn't leave because i'm a "coward" or because i'm afraid of "drama."

it's a social media app. there's going to be drama. i don't love it, but i know i have to accept that.

i think about leaving because i can't have these thoughts floating in my head. eli has brought this to our attention,

but i can assure you that she's not the first. i'm not suicidal, but my mental health is very bad.

in my best interest, according to my mom, my therapist, and myself, i can't be around mentions of self harm, suicide, or similar ideas.

i can't read books, watch movies, etc that have those ideas in them.

i don't have any irl friends that deal with these, so it's not a problem.

i am BY NO MEANS saying it is anyone's fault if you have thoughts like these.

i am BY NO MEANS saying i'm not going to be your friend if you have thoughts like these.

i'm just saying that sometimes i need to distance myself from it for my own mental health.

it feels really sucky when everyone is saying that i'm a coward or a wimp for leaving.

i know you're not targeting me, but i doubt i'm the only one. please be more aware of the things you say.

please don't hate on people. NO ONE deserves hate, NO MATTER what they do or say.

you never know what they're going through behind that screen,

and you never know what they need to hear, read, or see

to push them over that edge.