daddy's bad girl

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clare's pov:

i woke up feeling like shit. i need to go home now. luke was still asleep so i left a note, it was already 6 and luke said he had work today so he'll probably be up soon.

when i got to my room i went back to sleep in my own bed trying to sleep off the feeling.

"clare, are you ok?" carmen woke me up. i still feel shitty, this is great.

"why?"

"it's 5:45 you've been sleeping all day," she told me. i kinda just want to spend all day in bed. "are you ok?" she asked again.

"yeah i'm fine." carm gave me the look.

"come on clare, are you really ok?"

"no, i'm just out of it you know. i feel no emotions which makes me think i should be sad which makes me feel even emptier because i'm not necessarily sad." i told her.

"have you talked to luke about this?" she asked.

"kinda, i just don't want him to think i'm a mess and too much work, you know broken. i don't want him to leave me, i think i love him."

"you should stay in bed, i remember you used to get like this back home and you always just laid low for a couple days then you felt better. i'll make you some food, your probably starving," she smiled and walked out of my room. i love her, i just want to stay in bed forever and she's helping me.

a couple minutes later she came back with a plate full of cheese pizza. "well i ordered this earlier today and it's better than anything i can make so here," she said laying the plate down.

"thank you!" i mumbled while i ate. my phone started to buzz. "hello?" i answered it. carm gave me a hug then left.

"clare, why have you been ignoring me all day?" luke said angrily.

"i was asleep. i like just woke up," i explained. he sighed.

"can i come over?" he asked.

"i'm sorry daddy, i really want to be alone right now." i told him.

luke's pov:

today has been a shit day. i woke up late and clare wasn't with me. she didn't even answer me when i texted her. then i got to work and they gave me crisis after crisis, i hired other people to handle that.

after a long day i just want to be with clare, she makes me feel better, but she doesn't want me.

"is everything ok?" i asked.

"yeah," her voice wavered.

"clare is there something you aren't telling me?" i asked worried.

"luke just drop it, yeah? i'll talk to you later i guess," she said coldly. she's being so rude for no reason. my head was full of thoughts about clare. i pulled a bottle of scotch out of the pantry and pored it into a glass, if clare can drink all the time i can drink every once and a while.

after a couple glasses i was pretty drunk. i really want clare with me so i can hold her. i called her again.

"luke? what's up?" her voice soothes me automatically.

"please sleep over tonight. babygirl, it's been a really bad day and i need you." i said in a low, angry voice. i just want her here.

"ok, i'll be over in a little." she said and hung up. i finished what was left in my glass then put the bottle back where it was.

clare came over very fast. i let her in stumbling a little.

"daddy, have you been drinking? are you ok?" she asked worriedly.