You're All That Matters

Chapter 22

After about a minute, I pull away from Shawn and look at the time, which reads 8:30.

"Becca.." Shawn trails off, still holding me by the waist.

"Yes?" I turn back around.

"I don't want to be some sort of back up guy for you.. like don't get me wrong, you're amazing.. but if you would want to be with me, you'd have to really be with me. I don't want to just be some guy you go to if your relationship doesn't work, and then leave me for another guy.." He says.

"I completely understand. And that's why I wasn't planning on doing that." I reply.

"Good. Well it's getting late, I'll text you later, okay?" He says and I nod.

He kisses my cheek and gives me a warm hug and walks out the door. After he leaves, I lock the door and make my way to the couch. I turn on the tv and 'Friends' is on.

Only 5 minutes pass and there's a knock on the door. It's probably with Josh or Shawn, forgetting something.

I open the door to find a tear-stained Cameron. His eyes are bloodshot and puffy. His hair is in an even messier style. He's wearing sweats and vans.

"What." I say blankly.

"Why was Shawn here?" He doesn't sound angry.. just broken.

"He was over for dinner, and he was being the friend I needed." I simply say.

"Oh.." He looks down.

"Are we done here?" I ask.

"No.. Becca, I can't do this.. It's only been like 5 hours and I can't handle it. Imagine how I'll be in 3 days.. Becca i love you and I can't live like this." He says. I can feel my heart hurting.

"Well that was your mistake to sleep with another girl. I'm sorry Cameron, but I can't forgive you." The last sentence hurts to say. Here come the tears.

"I can't do this. Rebecca please. Give me another chance." He literally gets on his knees.

"Give me time to think. Don't get your hopes up, Cameron. Now please leave. Josh will be here soon and he'll beat the shit out of you if he sees you." I command and he stands up, walking over to me.

He grabs my face and kisses my lips, softly. I don't kiss him back. I just let him kiss me.

"Kiss me back, just once before I go." He says when he pulls away.

I avoid eye contact and nod.

He kisses me again and my lips move along with his. My hands go around his waist and travel up his back. His tongue glides over my bottom lip, but I don't grant him entrance. It's going to be too soon.

I pull away, still avoiding eye contact, because I know I'll get lost in his golden/brown eyes again.

"I love you." He says, holding my hand.

"Bye Cameron. I say and turn him around and lightly push him out of the house and lock the door.