You Never Know | The Misfits | Fitz

Double Reunion

@TheNil: I'm ready for the final day of the convention, who else is?

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@User1: I can't believe I missed this one 😩
@User2: ^ikr I got a picture with her you're missing out
@TobyOnTheTele: I got a picture with her too
@MissMichelle: me three!
@LuLu: me four!!!
@themccreamy: wtf she told me no pictures
@TheNil: 🤗
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A good amount of the different booths on the floor had already cleaned up and left. Mainly because they had work on Monday that they didn't want to be tired for but also because some of them were from distant countries so the flight back alone would make them late for work on Monday.

Nil didn't mind this and most people didn't. It just meant it was less packed and the ones that did stay were usually the bigger companies. Toby hung out around the twitch booth for a while and Michelle actually joined him since she had been wanting to get into streaming.

Lu had given Michelle her badge so she was out on the town for the day, shopping. It was her first time in New York and she planned on getting all the latest fashions.

Nil had ended up back at the original csgo gaming booth that she hung out at on the first day. Kugo had planned on joining her but he had to make sure Cam was okay with the plan so he told her he had to take an important phone call and that he would join her later.

It had been around an hour and Kugo was just talking with Cam right outside of the entrance doors. It had been a while since they hung out so they had some catching up to do and they lost track of time.

"Have you seen Kugo? He's about this tall and has dark brown hair," they jump when they head Nil's voice asking someone where he was.

"Fuck hide," Kugo shoves Cam behind a potted tree and pulls his phone out pretending to be on a call.

"Yeah he stepped out into the hall," an unknown voice says and the door opens, showing an almost shaking Nil with tears in her eyes.

"Hey mom I have to go," Kugo says into his phone before shoving it into his pocket, "what's wrong?"

"Uh I just... some fan came up to me just now and said they saw Cam earlier and if they saw Cam and I they asked if they could get a picture with us together and-" Nil starts but her voice cracks.

"Hey calm down, breathe with me okay." Kugo puts his hands on her shoulders. "So what if Cam is here?"

"I can't see him, now right now." Nil's voice is quiet but Cam can hear it.

"Why not? You were fine seeing Toby and Lu again, and you put up with Jay." He furrows his brows.

"I'm not strong enough," she whispers out.

"Bullshit, you're one of the strongest people I know." Kugo smiles gently hoping to lighten the mood but she frowns and looks down at the ground.

"I'm scared," she manages out.

"Of what?"

"Caring, I was raised a nihilist. I adapted to that lifestyle. I've never been a very good one but nothing mattered to me so nothing bothered me. My father kicking me out, didn't bother me. Giving me just enough money for one meal and a one way ticket, didn't bother me. Turning Jay down? Didn't bother me," Nil's voice cracks. "But I couldn't turn Cam down! When he said he liked me I immediately wanted to say the same shit I said to Jay l, 'love is a social construct' but I couldn't. It felt wrong. And I ran, because I didn't know how to deal with it and I'm sure that hurt him but I was more concerned with myself at that point,"

"He isn't mad at you if that's what you think," Kugo assures her.

"You know I almost confessed back? That I almost said to him 'yeah maybe you matter to me'? But he brought up how sorry he was and that we could pretend it didn't happen so I figured if that's what he wants then we'll do that. And then my fucking house burned down and the one thing that grounded me to this cold, forsaken world almost burned, and I didn't even take it with me! I left it with him because... because I trusted he would take care of it. And he has. I don't even think he's left it's side," Nil thinks about all the pictures of her precious succulent and Kugo nods, knowing that Cam brought it with him everywhere. Even now as he hides behind the tree a few feet behind him, the succulent was back at the hotel room.

"I've lived my whole life with nothing mattering to me and he comes along and he matters," Nils voice is weak, tears streaming down her face. " and I don't have the strength to face that. To realize that maybe stuff in this world does matter, maybe some shit isn't a social construct or maybe it is but I won't mind it. I don't even know anymore,"

"Nil," Kugo try's to interrupt her.

"But I'm not strong enough. And I won't be. I can't be," she pulls her glasses off wiping her tears but they're still falling.

"Do you like Cam?" Kugo asks.

"Like? I'm in love with him, and I won't admit it to myself." Her voice is hoarse.

"Oh Fitz, I'm such a huge fan could I get a picture with you?" A random person says as they walk by, noticing cam behind the plant.

Nil freezes as she watches Cam step out from behind the plant and immediately curses herself for not noticing him. He was wearing the white shirt with the wave pattern on it that she had chosen for him and he looked at her with genuine care in his eyes but it didn't stop her from bolting.

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"Hi Id like to buy a ticket, as soon as possible. Prices don't matter too much,"

"Okay ma'am, and where will you be flying?"

"Australia."