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The Optimistic Nihilist

@TheNil: I'm tired

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Lu: Hey Cam, can you go water the plants today?

Cam: why can't you? Not that I won't I'm in town anyway.

Lu: there have been cars coming and going every few hours which could mean a couple things
Lu: either she's home and she's ordering food so she doesn't have to leave the house and risk running into one of us
Lu: or someone is squatting in the house and I'm scared of the latter

Cam: how long has this been going on?

Lu: since we got back from NY 4 days ago

Cam: and you didn't think to tell me? Did you go water the plants a couple days ago?

Lu: no I asked mason to do it, he also said he didn't see anyone in the house though

Cam: I'm on my way 🤨

Cam left Ryan's house, chuckling a little as he passed the wall with all the spray paint on it. Ryan didn't even mention trying to cover it up and Mason was proud of it.

When he finally arrived at Nil's house he sat in his car staring at it. He looked down at the little succulent that he had been planning on returning to her house but every time he brought it he couldn't help but leave with it.

He sat it on his desk and Toby joked that it made up the oxygen that Cam wastes being stupid and they both laughed but it only made him miss Nil more. He lifted the small plant and walked to the door, unlocking it with the key that Lu had given him and anyone else that said they would help water the plants. Cam found himself doing it a lot more often these days but he also found himself in Australia a lot more than he usually would be.

"Hello?" He calls out into the empty house, being greeted with silence.

"Look I might be talking to myself right now but on the off chance that I'm not I'm gonna explain a couple things," he sighs as he makes his way to the desk they set up in the middle of the living room and places the small succulent on it.

"This house belongs to someone extremely special to me, to her friends. It almost burned down a few months ago and she ran away because she lost all of her plants and I'm sure you can see that we've tried our best to replace them on the off chance that she might come back." He grabs the watering can and starts watering the plants that needed to be watered. Usually they kept a chart but he did it so often he knew which ones needed it and which ones didn't.

"There's no special belongings in here besides the plants because we haven't replaced anything else and we don't plan to unless she comes back. I don't know if maybe you were looking for something but I'll give you money if you leave. I don't have a lot of cash on my right now," Cam turns and starts watering the plants in the kitchen area. "But I can make a run the bank that's near here and take some money out. I just ask that you don't wreck anything in here, we've spent a really long time growing some of these plants and the vines especially were a pain."

He enters into what used to be her bedroom and starts watering the plants in there. The house was silent so he figured he was talking to himself. But it felt nice to get shit off his chest so he kept going.

"I'd like to say she means the most to me but I don't think I can take that position since she has a couple friends who she considers siblings. But I can say I love her in a different manner than they do, if that makes sense." He opens the blinds, letting the sunlight warm up the plants. "I'm in love with her, and I miss her. And I just want the house to be ready for her when she comes back," Cam turns to exit the bedroom but jumps a bit and drops the watering can.

Sitting in front of the small desk with her succulent was Nil.

"You know, I much prefer you coming to see if there's people here. When Mason came he just kind of opened every door and screamed 'cunt where are you I know you're in here' which was funny at first but I think he genuinely thought someone was hiding behind every closed door," she says in a soft voice then looks up at Cam.

"You cut your hair," he says, not wanting to move in fear that she might run again.

"And bleached it a bit. Do you like it?" She locks eyes with him and he nods.

"Thank you for taking care of it, you've done such a good job." She looks back down to her succulent.

Cam just nods, still standing in the same spot.

"Did you mean what you said?" Her eyes don't move from her succulent.

"When?"

"Just now, your little monologue."

"Every word of it," Cam says in a gentle voice.

"I don't think anything matters. I never considered myself an optimistic nihilist either. But in this world you can choose what matters. And of all the things in this cold, unforgiving, uncaring universe, I'd like to designate you as something that matters above everything," she stands and looks over at him.

"Nil," Cam's voice comes out softer than he meant but she heard him.

"Yes?"

"Will you do me the honor of being my girlfriend?" He asks, he could feel the anxiety clawing at him.

Nil walks over until she's standing in front of him.

"Lean down a bit I have a secret to tell you," she smiles softly and he leans down a bit but she leans up on her toes and kisses him. It was a slow and soft and passionate kiss and they both felt like nothing else existed in the world.

But it was interrupted by the front door swinging open and a familiar voice yelling, "Oi cunt! Where are you!"