For The First Time

The Long Wait

Recap...Jennifer was beaten and raped by Beau. She now is in a coma that she doesn’t know if she’ll come out of. She is in an in between stage. Before death and afterlife. She is stuck there to try and find out why she is there and what she needs to, do or realize to be able to find her way back.

Jennifer’s P.O.V

I have been thinking for days now all I have thought of is it better if I go? Why should I stay? What am I worth living for right now…? I hear Harry talking downstairs. She goes down to see Marc and the kids. “Harry are you sure it is a good idea for them?” “Daddy where is mommy?” *max says* “Daddy please I miss her…” Max and Emme are both crying now. “Okay guys, *harry says* I’ll take you she is sleeping though. Mommy is very hurt and she needs her rest you can talk to her and kiss her but you guys have to be careful okay?” “Okay Uncle Harry.”

Harry is bringing them up to see me… I can hear their footsteps. “Okay quietly now guys she can hear you but you guys don’t have to yell. Max and Emme get up on the bed a lay on my chest each on one side. Max-”Mommy we love you and want you to get better.” Emme-”Yeah mommy i'm your princess and I want you to get better.” I can’t do this..I can’t watch this..I have to go somewhere!

She runs out of the house she walks and walks and walks until she is led to a familiar place. It was the first restaurant that Beau took Jen too and told her he loved her. Why here..? She goes to turn to run and all the sudden it almost passes through time it brings her to her first day of Idol. “Okay what is this flashback time now?” How is this all happening?”  Jen, Harry, and Keith are all saying hi and getting ready for the first time. Uh oh this is the first time I laid my eyes on Harry. “Hi. *shaking her hand* Ms. Lopez” “Jennifer, you can call me Jennifer.” “And we hug from where I come from no handshaking stuff.” “Oh okay I’m sorry.” *giggling being totally okay with hugging her*

I remember hugging him that day. He smelled so good. That first day was so much fun, I almost fell walking and he saved me and the way he looked at me. He kept looking at me all day long. I remember throwing him a smile and he almost lost it. Everyday after that he pulled my chair out for me, we took crazy amount of selfies, he was so annoying at times, but I loved it….Oh my gosh I loved it….

Back at the house Emme and Max fell asleep with Jennifer on the bed.

Marc-”Well it seems to be going well huh?”

Harry- “Marc I don’t think they truly understand, and that is a good thing they can lay with their mommy all they want and talk to her and never leave her side.”

-”Yeah, I just, why to her, what did she do to deserve this.”

-”I don’t know man but it is truly hard not seeing her pretty face wake up and smile at me in the morning.”

-”Trust me I miss that sometimes too..”

-”Hey would you mind leaving the kids here for a day or two?”

-”Are you sure that’s a good idea?”

-”Yes they need time and it is what Jennifer would want. She loves them more than anything and if it means that she may die at any moment then her kids can be the last thing she hears.”

-”Don’t say that Harry she’s not going to die!!”

*silence*

-”I have no problem with the kids staying for a couple days. Just make sure they are okay and if anything happens call me man.”