Addicted to leaves
But not ones that grow on treesI am addicted to ones not born out of nature
Addicted to them as if they are part of mineI feel an urge to leave
Maybe for so long that no one would remember me
An urge to leave the groups that seem to have accepted meTo leave them as I feel I lost my place
Like a leaf on a tree though it grows part of it
It soon falls and gets replaced with a new one
One so bright and young
One that would feed the whole tree strongI'm addicted to that act
To know that even if I was part
I would soon be not
I will soon break and feel pain
Soon leave that I only have myself to blame"I'm leaving," I say for the third and fourth time
Yet I know deep down inside how much I would like to stay
To be part of the experience long and short
Yet here I am like a decaying leaf
Indeed I die but my death helps the tree strive
Here I am again this is my alcohol
What makes me somber
What I do to ease the pain
What I overdose
In hopes, nothing would be there
That maybe this leave
Would be one of life too
Maybe this time I wouldn't return at allI'm addicted this thought no matter how much I try to fight. I go back into withdraw I am back into the cycle. I am here to stay, I say yet I keep having these thoughts.
A want to leave as feeling that my stay would hinder others.
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Addicted
PoetryEvery one of us is addicted to something Be it physical, emotional, or psychological They are there in different forms Some might seem like needs to others But to some these addictions feel so right While others feel off just keeping up with it to...