Little Ami

chapter 6

SONG FOR THIS BOOK
Chord over Street-Hold on

He was the one who watched me get closer to Raf ,He was the man i called to change my tyre when i got a puncture..I almost took my own life .If only Raf wouldn't have showed up in my life in that way,I would still be mourning my dad.

That night he brought beddings to my room,well to where I was to spend that night and sat on the bed looking at me,I looked at him but for a while it got uncomfortable and I decided to break the silence ''what" I asked."uhmm I WaS thinking,how about we strike a deal" .
"Am listening" I said,hoping he wasn't asking me to spend the night and leave his house early and never come back again.Because for some reason I was starting to like his company ,even though he was annoying and mostly because I wasn't ready to start a life on my own or with my mum yet."Okay,anytime you cry or sulk or pout you kiss me real hard" he said leaving me with my eyes wide open "no way" I said with a little laughter,okay in as much as I want to kiss this man so bad it wasn't going to be in that way,I was mourning my dad and I needed the space to do so ,i know it's been 6 months but I wasn't finding any closure
."You need to breathe "Says a man that has both his mum and dad,says a man who sees both his parents every single minute.While i just lost the only parent i had spent most of my life with.And for a minute I wanted to ask him what he knows about breathing ,does he know the many nights I got breathless like an asthma victim just because I was lost in thoughts and forgot to breath slow does he even know how suffocated my heart is right now. I was losing my shit and kissing ?kissing wasn't the answer to my problem .It was annoying and irritating at the same time.I mean,
Did I ask for much?I just humbled myself in that same altar and asked God to let my dad stay,I even asked him to trade it with all my dreams I told him to make my dreams vanish and let me have my dad,I fucking gambled with my career and
future and he did not honour my request,why ?I know he could make it happen ,there's a way he could make it right ,he always has a way,I mean he is God,right?
That's how my question of faith came in,
It still hurt bad,it hurt here it hurt in my chest !my heart hurt

'come back I still need you 'were the words I woke up to from all my nightmares . They kept you in a box and threw sand on you I watched as they lowered the coffin to the ground,I watched every bit of it and felt every ounce of pain that came with it. "hold on I still need you" i screamt,did you hear me . Those strong men held me back I couldn't come with you,I miss you Dad,all I do is kick stones on my way to our lonely home. I don't know what to do ,am not ready to move in with my sister and mum yet,we far much from strangers.The thought of feeling homeless hit,i only had one light, RAF!the son of my dad's boss.The man standing across me!The man asking me to forget about my father or kiss Him .Its a gamble.

And in for so long ,i slept well that night after Raf left .Sunrise woke me up!I felt it penetrate through the window and hit my face ,i couldn't help but smile ,Hashtag,peace came walking straight through my door. Oh No,hashtag,PEACE CAME CRAWLING RIGHT THROUGH MY WINDOW.I laughed at the thought of it.

"knock knock"
"Whose there"i said chocking at the water from the shower
"hey are you crying again"he said with a concerned tone.
"Come out and kiss me " he said after a long silence and I smiled through the waters ,I noticed my heart do something,something it hadn't done in so long .I took the towel wiping my face off I covered half my naked body and opened the door .

He was standing there leaning on the wall,he smelt like mint ,his eyes looking sleepy,not sleepy like sleepy ,just smoky.I didn't realise I was staring until water trickled down from my hair . I stepped out of the bathroom and held him by the neck,staring at him I realised it's feelings that I had for this boy all along,our lips crashed as he grabbed my waist to his body.

I didn't know that I was starving till I tasted him.Till I tasted the mint in him . I don't know if I was the vigorous one but I wanted to get so lost in him ,I could feel him get hard ,he kissed the shit out of me ,and I craved him more ,I could feel the towel that was now a barrier drop.

I held him so tight like I didn't want to lose another .I did not care whether I was standing naked in front of a man I knew so less about .Fuck principles .This felt right,it felt so right,as he slid a finger through me and slowly moved it in and out ,kissing my neck,he whispered something, 'i dreamt about you',I smiled with a tear.Maybe a final tear.Who sheds tears while getting intimate?

,I know he couldn't see me,but he won my heart right at that moment .He got vigorous ,and I was close,close to a feeling i had never had my entire life.And there I came so hard .He hugged me so tight as  I buried myself in his chest so hard ,and I wasn't mourning for help this time I was moaning for lust.LUST.

NOTE
I Hope you don't get lost..Trust me here😂damn it was my first time writing an erotic piece. I can admit I had fun..I know it's not that awesome,but I keep trying anyway.😂Thanks for reading please vote and comment...lemmeh know what you think