Evolution [JLS Fanfic]

Part 9

Georgie had gone home, and I just couldn't stop thinking about Ast. He had taken over my thoughts, from his entrance last night, to seeing him with that girl this morning when he said he was going for an audition. Why would he do that? Why lie? I mean, it's not like you audition in a park, or to a girl when he's been looking at boy bands. And, you don't audition lying down on the grass with that girl next to you. It just doesn't happen.

"Liv! Livi!" I heard someone running, calling my name. Knowing who it was, I carried on walking, starting to walk up the steps to my house.

"Liv!" I felt his hand on my shoulder, turning me around.

"Ast, go away." I spoke bluntly, turning back around and starting to unlock the door.

"What? Why?" I could hear the worry in his voice as he realised something was wrong. "Liv?" Tears were brimming in my eyes. I didn't want to loose my best friend, but I had to say this.

"How was the audition?" I spoke, looking him in the eye.

"Alright, I don't think i'll get it though." He replied, trying to sum up what I was getting at.

"No, neither do I." I replied, still looking right into his eyes.

"Eh? What do you mean?" Ast asked, confused.

"I saw you earlier, lying on the grass with some girl. What do you expect me to say Ast? Yesterday you're telling me you love me, today you're having a right time in our spot with some girl. Some audition that was. I see your feelings have changed, and you know what? So have mine." My voice got louder throughout speaking, the tears disappearing as my anger rose.

"No, Liv. You've got it wrong." Ast spoke, his eyes becoming glassy now.

"No Ast, the only thing I got wrong was you." I opened the door, slamming it shut behind me, and running up to my room. I pulled my pillows up around me, as the tears streamed down my face. Why do boys cause heart ache? Ten minutes later, and my eyes were red, sore and puffy as my phone buzzed. Ast. [Liv, you've got it wrong. Promise. Ring me and let me explain? I love you. Ast xxxx] I stared at my screen, unsure what to do. I wanted to be wrong, for what I saw to be erased from my memory, but I saw it, and I can't change that.

[I know what I saw Ast. I can't ignore something I saw with my own eyes.] At least he knew what I was thinking.

[I'll come around and explain? What you saw was me, but it wasn't what it seemed. Please Liv? Astxxxx]

[You have five minutes.]

I heard the knock on my window. We always used to climb up the trees into each others bedroom windows when we were younger if we weren't allowed round to each others houses. I opened my window, glancing at my reflection in the mirror. I had red, puffy eyes. Clear i'd been crying. My clothes were crumpled, and my makeup had smudged down my face. Nice one. Sitting on my bed, I stared at Ast, waiting for him to speak. He didn't.

"You have five minutes." I reminded him, staring him out.

"Liv," Ast paused, sighing and running his hand through his hair before starting. "That girl was my audition. I'd arranged to meet her at the park, and she beat me there and text me saying she was under the tree. I didn't take her to our spot, she chose it. I sang to her and she told me I was a good singer, but then she made me do these stupid vocal exercises, one of which meant me laying down and singing a load of V's over and over again in different pitches. That's why I was in the park, in our spot, laying on the grass. My feelings havn't changed for you, " Asts' voice started to trail away, as he spoke his final words. "I love you, so, so much." I looked at him, seeing the pain I'd caused him, the sadness in his eyes. Georgie had said there would be an explanation, and she was right. I'd just got a stupid idea in my head and run away with it. The tears started again as I looked at Ast.