Thoughts

Boring.

"Somebody's boring me. I think it's me."                                                                                                                                    -Dylan Thomas 

A quote from the late Dylan Thomas, one of my favorite poets. I discovered him through a school project, and after further reading into his works, I came to appreciate him more and more. 

It makes me curious as to how these fantastic people would reflect upon their popularity. 

For instance, one may argue that Edgar Allan Poe is the king of horror. However, during the span of his life, not many remembered or even cared about him. He wasn't nearly as recognized as he is today. And it makes me wonder how he would react. Would he have been proud? Or would he be upset by the numerous interpretations that he would claim as false? 

I find myself in a similar situation. Except, I believe that after I have left this mortal realm, I don't believe my works will be recognized at all. Partly due to my own fault of not publishing any of it thus far, and the other part being my own thoughts of said works. 

I relate to this quote of Dylan Thomas tremendously, and honestly feel it speaks truth in many peoples' lives. We get bored of ourselves and think very lowly of what we do. Even though some may find it wonderful or fantastic, to say the least. 

Sometimes I find that my writings, whether complete or not, aren't interesting to me. However, upon showing close friends, I find that it impacts them much more than I expected. This perplexes me beyond belief. I find it quite strange when I get positive feedback, since I am not used to it. I'm only used to the criticisms I give myself. So, I guess I'm not that bad of a writer after all. 

I tend to find myself in a mind-numbing loop when I open a new page, but once I start writing, it's hard to imagine stopping. I tend to bore myself before I even begin writing, and it seems to be another reason I don't do it more often.