Moments Of Defeat

Chapter 1 - Ticket Stubs

A/N I dont know how well this is going to go, but here is my first chapter! enjoy

Liz had invited me to go to London with her and her friends today. I haven’t really spoken to them that much before, but I felt that it would be good for me to get out of the house. It’s not the sort of thing I would usually do, going out on a day trip with people I don’t talk to; I’m not a very social person. But it was something that I felt I needed to do. I was so tired and stressed from school and I was sick of being at home all the time. I was nearly done getting ready; I just had a few more things to do.

I let loose my curly hair, it hung just below my shoulders. I wanted to grow it even longer, but it never seemed to grow. It hasn’t been trimmed for years now. People have always told me how lucky I am to have some Jamaican in me, blessing me with big curly hair, much like a relaxed afro, but I never used to understand why. It can be quite a handful at times. Once I finished my hair I moved on to quickly applying a small amount of eye makeup.

Before making my way downstairs I quizzically stared at my reflection in the mirror, debating on whether I would be too cold without a jacket. I was wearing my Dads old grey jumper, which was far too big for me ensuring that I would be warm and cosy. My black skinny jeans had started to fade as well as my worn out black converse, which I wore practically every day.

 I decided to check the weather forecast; it can get pretty cold in London after all. Autumn had come to an end and the trees are starting to lose their leaves, and that meant winter, which meant it would be Christmas soon. Pulling my phone out of my pocket I saw that I had text message from Liz. It read ‘Hey, don’t forget we are meeting at 10, my mum said you could stay round tonight if you want. Just let me know, and bring your stuff to the station and she’ll take it home for you. I hope you don’t mind but we are meeting one of Anna’s friends in London, and I think he’s going to bring a friend with him.’ I was eager to get a night away from home; I replied accepting the invite and started packing my bag.

I was frantically running around my room trying to make sure I didn’t forget anything. Just as I was about to leave my bedroom I spotted my headphones tangled up on my bedside table. I hastily snatched them of the side and made my way down the stairs, lugging all my bags with me.

Dad was in the living room watching the boxing as usual. I went to give him a hug and a kiss on the cheek. “I’m going now” He gave me a small smile and paused the TV before speaking “Are you sure you don’t want me to give you a lift?” I felt bad getting him to drive me everywhere.  “No it’s fine; it will wake me up anyway. Oh and Liz invited me to stay over at hers tonight, is that okay with you?”  He nodded “Yeah that’s fine by me, let your mum know” I pulled my phone out and starting typing a message to her, she was at work all day. At the top of the screen the time read 9:40am, it took me 30 minutes to get to the station when walking. I really needed to leave now, the others wouldn’t be too happy if we missed the train. “I’ve told her, okay I really need to go now, I’m gonna be late.” He insisted on taking me again, but I refused. Just as I reached for the front door handle, he yelled “Don’t forget a jacket; it’s going to rain later.” I realised I got so caught up on packing, that I never did check the weather. I quickly grabbed my dad’s old black jacket of the coat hook by the door. I seem to have accumulated a lot of his old clothes. “Thanks for reminding me I would of forgot” I continued “Bye, love you”  “Bye, love you too” he replied. “I’ll see you tomorrow” I shouted through the crack of the door as it closed.

I started speed walking towards the station, if I keep up this steady pace I should get there in time. I plugged in my headphones and started listening to the Beatles.  My thoughts wondered to what Liz had said in her text.  I hope you don’t mind but we are meeting one of Anna’s friends in London, and I think he’s going to bring a friend with him. I was feeling quite nervous that. I didn’t like meeting new people; I thought it was going to be hard enough going out with people who I don’t really talk to. Now there’s going to be strangers with us and I’m probably going to be left with no one to talk to, that’s what usually happens and I never join in with the conversations. It’s just too awkward and I never know what to say. The thought of having a whole day with new people made me slightly regret coming out today. It couldn’t go that badly after all, could it?

A/N So how was it? Hopefully not too bad. I don't know how far i'm going to go with this fic, i've started writing the next chapter. Is this a big or small chapter?? I don't know, nothing has really happened. I don't want anyone to get bored if they are going to read this. Let me know what you think, I'd appreciate comments and votes. Constructive criticism welcomed.